hey i got new blog temp! tell me wad u think! i think its cute but scary abit haha...my mom say dun let pregnant pple look at the doll....haha...right click and see what happens....hehe

theres a song...takes some time then it loads and u can hear...

Hur Hur.
10:55 PM

I realise...i'm petty...takes me an hr to get over sumthing...thats quick...

today had chinese O's...so exciting...when i was writing my compo i felt butterflies in my tummy! not as though i was going to wow them with my compo or anything but yeah haha...

not as hard as mid yrs though...maybe i'll get Pass or D7 haha...instead of the usual F9...shhhh..
well i really studied hard...everyday for 2 weeks plus....for like 4 hrs a day or more! yeah!


But most importantly...I FEEL FREE! hhaha but i'm not...u know what my dad just said?
dad: ok u take a rest later at night u can start studying for ur other subjects...
Denise: WHATT!!!! cant u like give me a week break!

ahhh damn mrs Lim....putting stuff in his head....but she din mean that...she juz said plan a study plan...not study like mad everyday and have no social life!!!!! ahhhh i juz wanna relax...

something lame...

i realised my dad is like electricty!

David Tan Kim Watt.
Watt
Watt
Watt
Watt...ZZzzaAppP

haha !

and he goes wad?
wad? wad? wad?
wad?wad?....Oh..
wad? wad? wad?
eh why never tell me....
nise: told u like so many times but u keep saying "wad"..


yeah i told u it was lame....it helps me calm my nerves....

Hur Hur.
3:33 PM

Friday, May 27, 2005

Go Away!

I'm a rude girl...especially to my mum...especially today...especially cos she wun shut up...
she says i cant be contented with my marks...she says dun compare...she says i shuldn't be happy or my marks wun improve...FINE SO I"LL BE SAD AND MISERABLE!

she juz dosen't know when to stop! Shut up! she juz goes on and on and doesn't listen to me...COS SHE"S STILL TALKING AND CANT HERE ME! aAAARRGGHHH!

i wun say i hate her...i juz STRONGLY DISLIKE HER NOW...hope it doesn't last...she doesn't think i can do it...she made me decide to go to poly cos she says i wun make it in JC! arn't mothers supposed to be encouraging and let us make our own decision as to what kind of pple we are! Now the sight of her just irks me... wen i look at her..i stare in anger...when she talks to me i cant help but raise my voice cover my ears and shun her away saying Stop it lah Go away can! and everytime she walks near me i feel irked too and shrug away....then she compares me with others when she herself says dun compare! wad wrong with u...

i class position improved...why cant she see i just want to be happy...just for abit! just for a second! and she juz has to say! why are u so complacent! HAVEN"T U HEARD OF CONSOLING URSELF!!!! ARGGHH! Its because of her why i have to console myself! WhY!!!!!!

Now she is the reason why i'm gonna do well for my O's i wanna prove her wrong! but she'd probably think its her way of depriving me that has made my grades improve..oh how thick can she get....

GET AWAY!

i know i'm rude...but u dun even believe in me...

just go away...leave me alone

Hur Hur.
9:45 PM

Friday, May 20, 2005

reality

i wish i could turn back time...change my mindset change some choices...change some people...

denise can u like snap back into reality! look at ur grades! what were u thinking! You did not study and yet u think u could do well! what the hell is wrong with u ...procrastinating procrastinating not doing hmwork now look at ur L1R5! its hiddeous! and what happened to ur emaths! cheryl beat u! why!!!! and OMG ur LITERATURE! WAD THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U! why...... and how could that have happened.....i really regret it....So u think ur so smart do u..no need to study lah! flunk again and again lah!

i should really bring my own standards down and work much much harder..looks like i'll have to sacrifice some things in life....and study..its for my own good....felt like crying today....but what was i thinking...i did not study...wad could i have expected! well mostly i damn angry at myself...and no one else....well perhaps some idiots..but its not their fault.. why did u expect As and Bs when i got... DENISE WAKE UP! ur not in dreamland! face reality! or u might not even get into poly!

at least i have some friends who are there for me...and i'll make sure to be there for them too....sometimes i need a reminder though hahas..we decided to make pacts! were gonna get at least a C6 for chinese and were gonna tell each othe rif we have a major prob and bea...ahem...
another is to get into top 10 or the class..yeah i know its kinda impossibles...er i mean unlikely(sounds more positive) but if theres a will theres a way! and some offered to teach me...yay thank yew! i love u guys man!

i studied for 4h 45min today for chinese no distractions! well that was cos i was in tuition class...
but it was self study all the way! yeah! talk about determination! hope it lasts though..ehh....think positive think positive! wo shi hua ren wo hui jiang hua yu! (quoted frm jn)

random event of the day...

in sec 3/8 class room

little itchy fingers nise was playing with the bead like curtains hanging from the door...
nise: oops! (a string of bead was plucked off and she quicky put it behind her back as kim frm 3/8 turned to look!)
AAA people: hahahahaha...(some juz stare blurly not knowing what happened)
kim: heh i saw something dangling behind u)
nise: heheh...

another random event:

literature paper came

nise: (juz stared...din know how to respond)

another random event:

GG paper...
nise: shit lah cant u juz gimme 1.5 arks more to pass! (looks around...pple worse than her)
nise: oooh....(wonders how come the improvement...relfects back on the last min studying...still wonders... then..) oooh..(again)
dunno hu: eh add 5 marks
nise:(omg i passed! 1st time in my sec sch life for gg...still wonders why...decides to shut uo so no one knows and feels bad)
however in the end could not control and told some pple hu she cannot remember...

another random event

nise goes: IDIOT! AHHHHRRRRGGGGGHHHH!

another random important event!

denise goldfish has not eaten for 2 days! denise go and feed them!!!!


another random event:

after recieving Lit paper

nise sings:

Here I am, once again I’m torn into pieces,

can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

(looks down and shuts up for quite some time..her eyes burn..)

drama drama man!

Hur Hur.
9:47 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

wheeeeeeee

haha today is just a normall day haha...

u know my new chinese teacher...i realised WE DON'T EVEN KNOW HIS NAME! have to ask him someday...hes this old guy..short..toot..weird smile and lonely...eats lunch by himself and teachers dun like him...and the sec 5s treat him like shit...and hes kinda lousy teacher...i pity him...wonder if hes married..i hope he is or i feel he might just jump or sumthing...CHOI! touch wood...(hits cheryl's head.. hehe) but he really very poorthing leh..summore we cant stand him and some off us are transferring class cos of him...im afraid it might just shatter him...i'll just feel so bad...better at least find out his name 1st...haha

got bad news for our marks today...but only some...english only 30 pple passed outta 40 and for pure lit 6.7 pple passed outta 30....that is like 2 pple!!! omg! and the highest is 51 marks! i tot i'd do kinda well..actually no...i din even study...barely had quotes...hahha ut i'd tot i'd passed...lit's my strong subject...now i'm only hoping im 1 of the 2...if only...oh but eveyone passed emaths...i wanna get A1! or A2! ahaaa but i oso din study...

random message:

on the bus home...

denise n cheryl boards up the bus and sits down at the same time and oso sighs at the same time....

cheryl: why u sign at the same time..
nise: huh? sign?
cheryl: no! sign!
nise: do u mean sigh?
cher: no! sigh! S.I.G.N
nise: huh? no! thats not how its spelt~!
cher: den?
nise: S.I.G.H ! since when did sigh end with a Nnh..~!
cheryl: oh...my spelling's bad remember...


haha cherly u better not be 1 of the 10 hu failed english ah! haha

stupid day...

yay this is my 1st short post!...well actually its quite long...hehe

my magic bean is growing very fast! frm b4 sch to after sch it grows like 2 cm! thats alot.

Hur Hur.
5:00 PM

Monday, May 16, 2005

fun day

HEYYYA! haha today was fun. went to orchard with JN Yilin PJ Glad Amanda Cindy n Jeanette....haha walked in a long row holding hands juz to block pple walking..thats so me! i support stuff like that...

hah entertained a prank call..someone called yilin (whom i believe is cindy n glad) and spoke in chinese...i answered instead and started speaking in chinese sarcasticly so funny...they were like yilin zai mah...wo shi zong guo ren..gong shi ren..{yilin there? im from china..some office people...haha and the chinese damn bad! must be glad...haha then can come back sit down pretend nothing happen...

and yilin..seriously u think too much..u very drama wan leh u! well if its like that what can u do..i tell u juz study chinese more n dun think bout it...it'll only get better if u dun think bout it cos it'll bother u and the matter will oso subside..so yar think about it...

saw cheryl n shirley in topshop today...

haha 1st time see people (ahem) go and bio people just like that like so common practice haha..but was amusing to watch...they did it in group summore..haha yar the girl was not bad i agree haha.. woot woot haha

one day im gonna take a giant lion soft toy and accidently* hit Glad's head haha...beware

later that day i went for tuition haha..found out some afganistan guy from her adult classes tried to hit on her hahahaha so funny...he was like trying to get her to go out with him and shes married and he knows it..haha he was like.."dun be so naughty..remember only can be naughty with me ah!" hahaha... gross..

headache now...study too much? no lah in ur dreams ..i never study and i sleep in class and i dun hand in homework.. not even late cos i dun bother...and teachers hate me(only geog socialstudies last yrs chineseteachers and maybe my form teacher) haha. but i still manage to do well haha..actually can do lah...now u maybe wondering why her class position last year so lao ya but remember last year theres CA and now theres not so last yr my CA very lousy cos..DUH...i dun do anything hhaa...
i believe there are 2 types of people in my class....1. the not so smart but super hard working
2.the naturally smart and lazy people...who are ME(haha) Jn Peijin Yilin Glad(eh maybe no leh haha) and somemore haha.cherly but shes quite extra she smart but oso study so hard haha...eh i complimenting u...but yilin like study hard oso leh....haha does that mean shes in group 1? haha joking..

juz wanna say Alex from OC is hot! haha...

Hur Hur.
10:28 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

walk walk walking

OMG!! Exams are like finally over and I'M FREE! whhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee but theres still olevel chinese coming up then prelims then olevels...ahhhhh so i feel trapped again...in studies...ahhhh

Today i walked home from kovan mrt and my house is like between serangoon and potong pasir...so i walked 1 and a half mrt stops...with cheryl..hmmmn lets see...1 1/2 stops is very far u know i think like 3km plus....walked for 1hr plus haha...now feet damn numb...but my toes are happy hehe...i like to walk...especially if i've never wlaked that place b4...oh and u know what! i was carrying a bag of SOIL!!! haha cheryl bought it..i said i would carry it for her i she walked with me haha...i feel so acomplished haha...haha but likeafter walking 11/12 to home i was kinda silly..guess i was tired..hehe i suddenly looked up at the sky and said to cheryl...

nise:oooooooh look at the ceiling...
cheryl: oooh can i touch it
nise: yar sure
cher: (touch) ooh its warm
nise:why
cher: cos of the lighting
nise yeah cool huh
cher: no warm
nise: (change stupid topic) oooh u know what..i've never walen this route b4
cher: walken?
nise: hehe i mean woken
cher: haha
nise: no! I meant walked haha

wheeeeeeeee went to buy presents for the May Baby LOGgers..haha hehe

i gonna relax now...today go out tml go cycling sun go to church for session then eat lunch mon gout out with frenz tues go watch kingdom of heaven! yay its NC16 and i can watch haha

i watch house of wax! so gory man..its NC16 not bcos of sexual content but more of the goryness

let me discribe to u:

the house suddenly blacked out.

omg i suddenly clicked something then went back and my post was GONE! luckily thers recover post button.

ok back to the story...

he couldn't find the door out...the trap door from the floor opened slowly a man with big plyer sissors came out and went for his leg...
the guy couln't see the bad guy...and the bad gut cut his ankle deep in and we could hear a crunch...blood oozed out in buckets like nobody's business and the guy screamed and fell to the floor...he struggled with the bad guy( who by the way has a wax ugly face) and the bad guy injected his neck with something that prevented him from moving.....

guy on the op table.... wax face guy sewing up his cuts and his ankle while he on the table crying in silence...he felt everything...the he put the guy in this machine full of needles..but they din touch him.. the tonnes of boiling hot wax sprayed out all over him...hes still alive...eyes filled with terror..

nxt his fren come to find him and stumbles about him in the house of wax at the piano...fren says'omg! let me help u get out of there'...waxed up poor thing guy...eyes still moving....still alive..fren starts digging the wax off of his face...and unfortunately his skin came out with the wax and his flesh shows...guy whose face is falling apart crys in pain in silence...tears just run down his face....stupid fren says; omg let me out it back and starts pressing the wax into the face which DUH hurts even more...then the evil guy comes back with knives and just chops the fren face off juz like that while the guy was putting back the face..thus he accidently pulled off a whole chunk of the waxed guys face showing his teeth and all the whole half of the face....ewwww...the the frens headless body juz dragged away by the evil guy leaving a whole lot of blood like everywhere...ok enough

i wanna watch it again hah~!

byee my GOLDFISH can talk!

oh have u ever wondered...like the whole town people is wax and the house is all wax even floors celings and beds and stuff...so where do they get all the wax..its a secluded town where no one knows about and is not on any map....so where do they get alll the wax! hmmn...and how to they live there till so old when thers no food left there as no one replenishes it...hmmnn hehe

byee

Hur Hur.
7:47 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

stupid bird

you know wad! today in the examination hall something gross happened!
a bird flew through the hall and out of the hundreds of people it had to shit! on me! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh GROSSSSS!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWW!!

traumatised..

it like flew and shitted on my shoulder test paper pencil box and EAR!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so i had to go off halfway and wash myself...mrs lim kept laughing, she tot it was amusing...i so unlucky lah! then when i went back i sat in the wrong seat hahaha so embarrassing co behind was a hearing impaired girl and she did not have to take chinese!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh stupid bird...i hate you

Hur Hur.
4:17 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

sore face

ahhhhhh guess wad! i bought 2 ADORABLE GOLDFISH! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee they're teeny tniy haha and ones called Orange and the other squishy!!!! hahahhaahah yup...thats so denise haha.

ahhh i did youth session todayb wheeeeeeee so messy but fun haha. play hilsongs everyday and best fren so slow cos they couldn't catch it...ahhaa nvm..

i knocked my guitar and now theres a big dent ! ahhhhhhh angry!!! no lah...

WAH my face is dam sore right now lah! i need pain killers...u know why! so much emotions n expressions today haha lets seee...

Happy: saw and hugged my church frenz
Excited: getting ready for session
Embarrassed: played wrong chords
disappointed: had to play hillsongs so slow
angry: my guitar got dent
wonderful: played my guitar!
acomplished: finished playing
relieved: dun need to play anymore
amused: Joshua Foo's version of my best fren
disgusted:Joshua Foo's version of my best fren
awesome: i can play guitar! haha
blessed: for all my friends
blur: din know which cue the kenny was giving
bloated: after eating nasi briani
broke: after teri had to lend me 30cents
busy: while planning
annoyed: 2 diff guitar n piano songs together
bubbly: always
childish: said BOO! to fellow LOGers
crappy: always
cuddly: hugging time!
energetic: the whole day
shocked when jesslyn shocked me
greedy: when i bought ice cream!
loved: by all my frenz
naughty: always
playful: always
happily amused: at how eveonne and me remember how we 1st met
sick: at how my icecream was so sweet
sore: my face now
terrific!: when i got my 2 goldfish

hahaha yar...teehee

i shall call you squishy and you shall be mine. you shall be my squishy...finding nemo

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i need pain killers now.. by





this song is damn nice>


Gavin degraw
Chariot

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon ohhhh
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rised
It puts over me

[Chorus:]
Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength

Remember seeking moons of birth
Rings made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
It is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
City filled with burden
Cover me
From bringing back
More than a memory

[Chorus]

You'll be my vacation away from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly

[Chorus]

Hur Hur.
3:10 PM