Today was a very very Good day!

i feel so blessed today.

1st my dream.
Then the message.
Then I understood...
Legion is in God's hands..
All we have to do now is have faith
and follow God's guidance.

this is one moment which i will always rememeber. never have you been so... direct ahaha

2nd
Then.
Log session.
I really needed it.
i could relate to it so so much.
i Love that log is there for me
and anne as well
for all of us.
And then there was the..afiirmation bit.
Its said.
I love Nise because...
and we all wrote down why...
was really touched haha
and i was surprised to see that i could write so long for so many people haa
that showed me that i had really journeyed with each of them
some more than the others.
But thats not the point haha.

I really love Log.
we're more than a youth group.
We're a coummunity.
Who loves.
Thus, we are a family :D
God's children at your service.
Hes our father. The head of the house.
People may see us as just a group of youths.
They see.
But we experience.
its more than just that.
so much more.

Praise God.
I love you!
haha

3rd.
I had a good long chat with my friend. haha
Told the person the message i received.
yes. about the number 1 thing that made my day.
i hope it made the persons day too.
I told anne too.
I love my (LJS)^2.
haha athough their reactions may not be as big
as ms clarice ahhaaa( I love u too! )
it was really impt to me that i told them.
haha
had a strong urge to call! so i did! and i was glad!
at least now i know more.
and get things off my chest.
And i hope i can help in some ways.
actually. i know already haha
i know alot alot.

but it'll all be kept with me.
And God.
and maybe (LJS)^2 haha
and whatever i said i'd promise.

4th!
I did not study today!
break!
haha ok no this is waht i feel bad about
feeling very guilty!
gulty!
gahhhhhhhhh
my physics is strongest now i think
haha


I love Log. I want it to last forever
I love Legion. I want us to stay together
I love God. I want to live for him forever.

Hurray. haha

blogging is time consuming.

Justin Kong says he has snowflake eyelashes...when i noticed he had split ends on them ahhaa
I feel so restricted on my blog. cant say what i wanna say. anne u boh liao i know u will read this haha maybe soo too.
anne..you should know why...

Hur Hur.
10:14 PM

I know my blog's dead. hahaa

i'll try to update more..


anyway..i thought that...and people also though that...

TEACHERS DAY WAS A SUCCESS!!!!!!

hurray!

momo said we broke the curse of bad teachers days ahahhahaa
yeah man!
go 32nd council!


omg! i loved the bands!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
going crazy!
I love bands!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hahahaa

i feel like a groupy..

eeek! no way


ahhhh i love the 2nd band!
the one that sand dolphin's cry! ahhh
the guy sing damn nice can!
like life house liddat!
then while listening to the dolphin's cry song on my comp..
i think..
the guy sounds much much better!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
hahahaa
by the way...its the song thats playing on my blog now haha

the song damn nice can

before i leave cj
i wanna sing on stage
like that guy!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

i wanna form a band in cj
i wanna sing ahahaha

hmmm i shall put it on my wishlist haha

even aloy has a band! and hes lead singer!
way cool!

i want! hahaaa

i feel like a spoilt brat ahhaa

only child haha

hey i dun behave like only child can..and no im opposite of spoilt!
i have no maid! and my parents dont buy me stuff! they say i have my own allowance..booo
pity me hahahaa
alfred said i look like i got lotsa lotsa siblings ahhahaa
wrong! ahhaa

yesterday after teachers day had legion phototaking! and then a very speedy meeting! hahaha then go eat sakae sushi!! yeah man! so full can..

nice nice nice

then went for tuition..early! cos cheryl reach so freaking late ahahhaaaa
i was there from 6.30 to 10 can
1hr 30 min extra

was damn tired yesterday..

you know what i miss school already
i wanna go back to sch now ahha

i really love cj.
i'll be super broken if i had to leave it.

pray for me.






The Dolphin's cry by Live

The way you're bathed in light
Reminds me of that night
God laid me down into your rose garden of trust
And I was swept away
With nothin' left to say
Some helpless fool
Yeah I was lost in a swoon of peace
You're all I need to find
So when the time is right
Come to me sweetly, come to me
Come to me

Love will lead us, alright
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Can you hear the dolphin's cry?
See the road rise up to meet us
It's in the air we breathe tonight
Love will lead us, she will lead us

Oh yeah, we meet again
It's like we never left
Time in between was just a dream
Did we leave this place?
This crazy fog surrounds me
You wrap your legs around me
All I can do to try and breathe
Let me breathe so that I
So we can go together!

Love will lead us, alright
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Can you hear the dolphin's cry?
See the road rise up to meet us
It's in the air we breathe tonight
Love will lead us, she will lead us

Life is like a shooting star
It don't matter who you are
If you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
We are lost 'til we are found
This phoenix rises up from the ground
And all these wars are over

Over
Over
Singin' la da da, da da da
Over
Come to me
Singin' la da da da, da da da
Come to me

Hur Hur.
4:27 PM

ive forgotten.

i know ive made you sad.

Cos now that ive remembered

i feel sad too.



forgive me.




Dear Lord,
I miss you...



Here I am.
I dont ever want to forget you again.


it sux.





Thank you swee
for helping me realise.
:)


Father Lord,

thank you for being so patient with me. For all those times when i fail to acknowlde you or spend time with u. For being so blind and not putting you as priority in instances in my life. Thank you for waiting for me and reminding me in ways so unexpected. May you use me in one of your unexpected ways for others as well. :)

Nise.

Your my bestest friend..



Sorry cheryl...Your my 2nd bestest ahaha

Hur Hur.
12:04 AM

havent blogged in ages...


I must learn to be fierce and scary! i must learn to scold..

im too nice...
shit..

jaclyn calls me de-nice..

haha if she were to refer to my hair..it would be...de-nicest hair hahahahahahah

ok lame


i need someone to teach me to scold ahhaa
i can do it!
i am a lean mean machine! ahhaa


was damn pissed today..
because of
i gave a bad impression to the teacher can


i feel like...
its back to sec 3 legion days again..
where the legionaries were freaking irresponsible..


shall learn to not be so nice..at the right time..
haha
cant make them do push ups ahhaha
id like too
hahahaahaaa


its time to take action...
im gonna make a list
no proper excuse
no nice denise ahhahahaa




gahhh u know what
im kinda lost..


its like..im planning for a mass..
i doesnt feel like im even doing it for him

its time i get back on track.

Hur Hur.
10:10 PM

I just want to say that...session today was good..especially for me at this time in my life...

Complete

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart, I offer up my life
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You



This song really touched me during session..the lyrics really represented what i wanted to tell Him. Havent really been praying much or at all infact..But im really glad i went for session today..

I can't go for weekday masses any more..or take part in any big events...just felt so distant from him and his prescence lately..cant even go for legion no more...but at least theres still Log..Praise God.

Today's session was about realisation...realisation about how only God can give us true joy or something like that ahhaha..then they asked us to share about moments in life where God has just touched you and stuff...so i thought for awhile...and i could just think of so many instances where i really experienced true joy through him and i just felt really really blessed you know...and this really gave me the strength to go on in my life right now because he was always there for me in all my darkest moments...I feel much better now...


Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So.....

I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord...

For I know I will be complete in you...


Just want to thank Liver Rice and Soo for todays session...
In someway..
I felt him speaking to me..
Through you guys...

Praise God.

Nise
is happier...

But still..I feel i need a miracle..
My future depends on me right now..
No one can help..
I think...
If u are reading this..you know me too well
If u are reading this..you are too boh liao that u must highlight a blank area.

Hur Hur.
6:06 PM

"are you studying?"

not yet

"what!?" face changes

i have to do the council journaling thing if not i cant account for the projects i did..

"what if you get kicked out?"

argh don't disturb me! let me finish this 1st!

"What if you get kicked out..."







Go Away! Leave me alone...



my heart grew heavy at that phrase..


i dont ever want that to happen...
im trying..im studying..
im trying

go away..

Hur Hur.
7:38 PM