Its supposed to be.. Jesus 1st Others 2nd and You last..and u get real J.O.Y! get it? ahahha
But council limits others to a small group of people...or the school as a whole..or a big group but really vaguely..hhaha
oh well! i campaigned for it! i love it! but i love legion too....
ok heres the problem.. i suggested to have legion fellowship on friday.. and then council said they would have bonding games on that day so i postponed it.. to monday! and council postponed theirs too to monday!
ahhh so freaking irritating!
and i really love legion! the people so fun! ok i know this is a social thing.. ok..fine so this is a personal want but i love them! hahaha i even gave them names! like pets ahhahahaha
but council comes b4 legion.. yeah i know
and summore!
i felt so guilty.. about the syf thing that no one from ca can go ok so they needed one more person so i volunteered in the end
but. i have tuition and my teacher is pissed with me if not been going and i cant go on monday and wed cos theres council im gonna embarrass myself terribly in chinese orals you know i hate chinese you know i cant read. freak. my chinese is doomed i bet i'll have o take clb next year sorry teacher but i too lousy. im too busy. i know thats not an excuse thats a choice a costly choice i made.
one more thing!
i have to plan finish LOG SESSION! and some legion people are going. It has to be good. have to show them we not some jang jang crazy youth group and that we are proud to be catholics but we just more nicer people ahahha and fun
i'll have to resort to planning.. praying.. asking the spirit to help me while theres singing and music and stuff during syf. so much things to distract me. but maybe this is just a test of my faith. and strenght.
so i will not lose hope! for my faith is strong! Even if i feel so crappy bout it i know God has a plan for me and nothing happens by accident. Like the email said. there are no coincidences.. thats where God wants you and that very moment. And if you trust in him. Things will go well.
WELL CANT STOP ME FROM COMPLAINING THO!
theres still another thing!
SYDR bbq at SFX.. we're supposed to be there.. well at least i can go back church with swee. i was supposed to go church early to plan finish with anne and bel but now i cant cos of the freakin syf! so have to plan it on my own i hope everything we plan seperately falls nicely though. and so we cant mingle later at the bbq we have to steal as much food as possible then lock ourselves in a room and plan. and eat. unless the church pple say cannot stink up the room. then i'll have to resort to starvation and sneak up once in a while for a chiken wing or something.
Sometimes..
life just is so unfair...
this busyness..
i guess
is a cross i have to carry..
and i hope
i wont loose hope
and always remember..
Its things times like these
where i feel the weakest
when perservered and without giving up
with God by my side. (impt!)
i come out a stronger person
then i once was.
yay..
that actually sounded wise..is wise!
and it came from me! but dunno whether i heard it b4 lah..
wah seh! can use it in sharing later!
thank you Lord!
haha
i trust in you.
i know i'll experience many more trials ahead.. and i have gone through many b4.. (dang why dies council keep doing this to me and i still join) (i guess im weird)
but
"i wont give up, no i won't break down sooner than it seems life turns around and i will be strong even if it all goes wrong when im standing in the dark i'll still believe Someone's watching over me..."
HAHAHA GAY! HILLARY DUFF SONG!
but still its meaningful right now..hahaha its called "someones watching over me: nice song..i'll send it if u ask me :)
i hope i can soon sing this though..
" Thank you lord for the trials that come my way in the way i can grow each day as i watch you lead and i thank you lord for the patience those trials bring in that process of growing i can learn to care..
blahblah haha this song is future tense the hillary duff is present tense i hope my grammar stays perfect yeah.. get my drift...hahah
is this song sacred or secular music
im kinda confused after a pnw discussion haha but i still love music haha not jang jang music! thats only nice to hear! but i know its not proper for pnw! haha but still not all those church sacred secular music can be used for my session ahahahaa cos it deals with problems we are experiencing and the lyrics somehow just fit u know..
i just thought of something u know the fill my cup song? its kinda hyper isnt it like upbeat... it seems happy.. but i dont think the lyrics is happy.. its just weird its kinda sad actually..the lyrics its more like a yearning hahahahha
" fill my cup lord i lift it up lord come and quench this yearning of my soul..bread of heaven feed me till i want no more fill my cup fill it up and make me whole"
i dont see someone singing this happy haha
ok im just rambling haha
maybe i just dont like the tune..hahah
and if i change the tune..to something thats more suitable to the lyrics.. is it still sacred music? it is right..its used in church hahahaha
ok rambling rambling
i ramble alot
partly beacause i have no need to study! whahahha so i preoccupy myself that oso confuses me very smart move denise
hur hur
ok i tired.. i really want a massage hahaha
buh bye!
i love Log! haha i love how we arent like other youth groups so jang jangish jumping here there everywhere shouting yelling screaming! i think the music part..is just to make the song beautiful! haha..if u play..u also lead in worship and so cannot anyhow jang jang ahhh shit im rambling again
im gald im music ic haha im just so obessed bout music is that good or bad? hahaa well at least now i know more bout it
EH I FORGOT TO BLOG BOUT TODAY!
STUPID RAMBLING
ok was in the prayer room at 10.30 with anne to plan for session then legion then my freaking beautiful chopstick broke! ahhhhhh anne say she glue for me thank u! then legion went to eat longjohn silver! at far east speaking of that anne and i are now L2J2S2 parteners! Longjohnsilver squared haha legion log jang jang spiritual sharers ahaha then go walk walk abit then go play pool! but only Darren Jon sim and i play..booo the rest pang seh and joan and mag went wrong place sorry gals!! im so so so so sorry! did alot of consoling during pool haha cos the white ball had a strange attraction force to the holes haha wah seh my white ball jump over my solid balls and into the freaking hole! the stick and the stripe balls were jinxed i tell u! haha then i stepped on some sticker thing..my slipper lah and i was freaked out by it it wouldnt come off so i used a coin darren helped me oso help so much that perhaps part of the sole came off haha i think it was gum ahha yuck..oso bad like the one on the bus thanx ah anne bluff me make me sit near it and i think i pool really badly.. cos jon sim let me shoot again even tho i foul hahahaa ok so i play badly but i still like pool! next time i bring lotsa powder! haha powderpower! hahaha
ok then go home
and i cannot go on mon bye bye beautiful east coast park hello council peole with bonding games in school.
Dear Lord.. Give my strength.. Empower me..
Hur Hur.
9:26 PM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Today is officially my 1st free day for the holidays.
i really have NOTHING to do! except later i have to go church and plan for session...ahhh i have nothing! i need to pray...meeting anne and bel later..
Today im supposed to spend time with God..haha woke up and took out the jam with the lamb and played guitar. but...cant isng in the morn..didnt feel like doing much...but eating...haha
and stupid swee! you woke me up! i thought it was my hand phone alarm...but anyway it was already 11.30 ahha
ok..
im addicted..
to the high school musical song! Breaking free!!! its so nice!!
ahhhhh so nice...i havent even watched the movie ahha its on disney channel and my parents took off all the cartoons!! not fair...its replaying on sunday...anyone? wanna invite me over? ahahhaa
music is so beautiful! i love music!! music music !! MEYOUSICK!!! HAHAHA
my dream...is too be in a musical...and sing a song! on stage!!! really! serious! its like the coolest thing ever...! singing on stage...like the breaking free song! omg! ahhh i can just die...hahahahah i like to sing haha
i love music... AHHHH music is wonderful! beautiful! ahhhh so lovely! pop rock jazz hip hop punk rock ballads rnb rap and PRAISE AND WORSHIP!!
whatever it is...i like!!! i like rock! yes i do!! and ballads ahahahaha abit extreme yeah...i just dont really like classical...cos theres no words..i need to understand what im hearing...i have a problem...i need to understand everything...ahhahahahha then im satisfied ahha
i like nickelback hur hur...and emo songs..
emo emo emo emo emo emo!!!
i lurve it!!
haha
pnw is oso soooooo beautiful!!
i dont understand why people can..not like pnw.. like jon chan hahaah the milk man!
its so sad..
music is like poetry! with tune! and easy to remember haha..it helps one express oneself! its so nice...i like emo songs!! i like kelly clarksons voice..haahah
life would be plain without music...dull i tell u...monotonous..borinG!
hur hur i just reallised..im music ic haha
and i have a passion for music!!! yeah!!!!
and Pnw! love it!
some catholics are against it..because its really christianish and prefer..stuff like taize..haha i like taize leh! hahaaaahaa
i agree with that fact...but whats wrong with that..its not evil wad ahhahahahah
its beautiful!
haha
i love music! and i apreciate it!
i like especially those slower songs though...not so much of those with electric guitar hahaha
Some people say that pnw makes us emotionally high and we like the feeling.. I think PnW helps us to open up..just listening to the lyrics...it helps us to reflect..it calms me hahaha..helps me not get distracted ..like i always am...
i dunno...when i sing pnw..i feel just so calm...sometimes i just cant express myself..and i can through songs..helps me to open up and surrender myself in this beautiful act of song! ahha i dont care who hears it...cos i know God hears it..and im singing to him! hhaha ..yes i do agree sometimes it gets me emo..haha..emo songs..haha but so what...i emo means i emo lah...not emo oso can wad hahaha
what i cant stand...
ahah! i am actually agaisnt something!
is how some people you know..like the life concert...i could just feel that..the songs..they sung..were not to praise or worship God u know...it was more of a rock concert..a performance..it was good yeah but..thats not the point of the life concert is it..especially when we do pnw..if its just some regualr song then go ahead...and somemore..people clapped for the people singing after each song..er..why are they? wrong person to clap for lah! ai yoh
and i cant stand how somepeople just..er..you know like purposely get all emo...like in Festival of praise...now i think thats what jon chan was talking bout...im against that..u know like the song just start then suddenly...they just raise their hands up in the air...then cry out and stuff like the whole world should know they ..er..i dunno...i know they love God so much..thats so cool..but yeah...ur not the only one..and you dont have to brag about it..like what the gospel said.. i heard this in mass...something bout those who preach in the street and yell bout blah blah...and that just praying in ur hearts is enough..or something like that ..u know what i mean
you dont have to make it a show..ist not about you..its about God...but i dont say that u should like raise ur hands or clap or anything....i feel that..if you want to do something..it must be genuine and from the heart..not because you should be not because of what u want people to think but because you know...you. want to..take this step forward. and open up to him.
Like the last year end of year retreat..b4 that i went to china and shopped so much i was overpowered by my material wants that when i went for camp..i just felt so far from God and so unworthy to like talk to him and praise him...and worship him..that i just refused to sing some songs..u know just sing cos they were singing..i would clap if they clap oso..but it just did not feel right...i know what i was doing wasnt genuinely from my heart..i was just following...i came for the retreat not wanting to acheive anything but because of friends...so i was just really bummed throughout..like what am i doing here.. but the people rock man..they helped me to understand things..and after some..stuff. ahhaha i prayed..for the desire to come back to him..er u know what i mean...it was only then..that i tried to er give it a try ahha to open up myself to him...u know.. then..there came this talk from this external speaker..i slept through 80% of it..that bad..u see! then after wards there came this time of short praying over again..just a mini one if u wanted to go up to the intercessory team to be prayed over..so i prayed to God..about how crappy ive been feeling..and all..just wanted him to listen to me..cos i didnt think he'd understand me..or how i was feeling and stuff...then so i just had this urge to go up..so i did..and terence prayed over me..and he happened to say the stuff...that i just told God a minute ago..exactly how i said it summore ..i was like ...woah sia..power...u really did listen to me and u know me..im so thankful and all..felt so touched ahhaha..could really feel the power of the holy spirit working through him..
wah then i go back sit down i kinda was like crying lah...softly...so nobody see ahahaha so touched...i remeber daniel saw me cry then he ask me if i alrght..i so embarressed that someone saw me i shoo them with my hand haha like a fly hur hur.....then in my mind i sang to God the even though you know song..haha see i love songs so much.. and this song really reflected how i felt at that moment..then after no more pple to pray over..they played song...ALAMAK! ITS THE EVEN THOUGH U KNOW SONG! ahhhh omg...i know he was behind this hahahah..its was a message he wanted to make really clear ahha...3 times in the bible means emphasis yeah ahahah.. then i burst out wailing until people around me got shock...everybody like so calm execpt me..haha people yesterday cry cos got praying over i lagging sia hahahaha.. i still remember..as the song started and i started to sing the song too...my eyes kept swelling and the words became hard to see..my lips kept trembing until i had to purse my lips tight to control myself..the words..ahhhh shit..then suddenly..WAHHHHH! couldnt take it sia... ahhahaha i remember anne hugging me ahhahaha then everybody hug me.. hahah i like hugs.. hug! good! i ivite hugs!
haha just thought of something...we cannot give hugs...we can only borrow..cos when we hug someone..then can only hug back ahhaha
yeah so u see...these songs are special to me...God uses them ahaha as messages! hur hur...and my messages to him..:D
ok this was a long draggy but meaningful post haha
shit..its 4.11 and i supposed to be inchurch by 4.30...ahhhhhh ok buh bye! and i think i blogged my retreat experience bout that in the log blog too ahhaha
yeah and this was the song they played
"Even Though You Know" by ?
You search me, you know me you know my every move theres nothing i can ever do to hide myself from you
you know my thoughts, my fears my hurts my weaknesses and my pride you know what i've been going through and how i feel inside
and even though you know you will always love me even though you know you'll never let me go i dont deserve your love but you give it freely you will always love me even though you know.
hehe so true so true...
And remember.. "Praising God is about self." by Ms Susan Yeow. :D
God luvs ya!
Hur Hur.
4:26 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
ok..the time now is 12.01
and i havent studied physics yet...and the paper is TODAY!
help me..
i cant
study
cant
understand!
i need someone
to teach me physics
not help me understand
but teach
like a teacher!
and tolerate my slowness
and incapability to understand..
booooooooo
physics sucks
guess i'll take a whack at it in the morn.
I CANT WAIT FOR WEDNESDAY! COS ITS THE LAST PAPER!! WHAHAHAHA THEN I CAN SLACK ONCE AGAIN!! FOR AWHILE AT LEAST..
and concentrate on what i like to do..
SING! GUITAR! CHAT ON MSN! ok i do that everyday. WATCH TV! GO MASS! PRAY! HAHA YES!
OMG!!! I FORGOT! I HAVE TO PLAN FOR LOG SESSION! ANNE, BEL!! DO U HEAR!
but oh no!!! ANNE!! I KNOW UR GOING OUT EVERYDAY WITH ORCHARD!! CAN WE HAVE 1 DAY TO PLAN!!! PLEASE!!! IM FREE ON THURS!! HAHA
yay! today is the 26! i can start using my new daily planner!! haha its so cute! its from paper chase!! wah my whole week is filled up ahha..
i like to see that im busy! i cant stand being.. free ahhaaha having a day to slack at home i rather go out and mug with friends ahha
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO LEGION MEETING ON FRI! WHY? I DUNNO! I LOVE LEGION! I LOVE THE PEOPLE!! HEHE THEN WE ALL GO EAT LUNCH YEAH!! LIEK ALWAYS!!
lunch is good fellowship!
fellowship reminds me of lotr haha
and.. i told one other person today hahaa so now 2 pple in the whole world know besides me and my God.
eh no 3 but not totally haha didn't plan u to be the logger i would tell. u were just lucky. haha anyways.. im glad i told u! my 3/4 nice friend! do u feel honoured ahha i know u do!
oh this is exciting it is its funny im a normal person haha dont think.. tag! haha my blog! yup
random picture..
yay! i played for youth mass!!! do u see me! yes u do! haha
all the 3 youth grps playing guitar! yeah man! that mic there tho..u see..it...its spoilt! arggghh!!but they changed mic later yup yup
arghhhh feel like doing the quiz on jes's blog.. maybe tml
i should be sleeping
oh and i change my blog song to an emo song!!
BOSTON BY AUGUSTANA!! YEAH!
i want to write another song
i did not finish my last 2 songs
haha
i want to record more songs haha ok jon!!
i feel like singing in the choir...
random fact.
i have been in 4 choirs.. uncle dennis choir (quit) 9am choir (quit) pri sch choir (kicked out :p) and..youth mass choir!! (er..a one time thing?)
i can never stay in a choir..
i dont like to use my choir voice
i think it sounds like opera
then again..phantom of the opera..it was good..i kept singing yes the opera ish songs..
i can reach the high note in the phantom of the opera song! the one where he brings christin into his layer on the boat..yup!!! i tried it!
im a bathroom singer.
i cant sing infront of my parents
its psychological
found out im not the only one..
theres william! haha..but not his parents ahhahaha right anne!
i can sing where theres friends!
who sing along!
i do not like to sing
alone
unless i know i sound damn good!
haha
actually no
all the more i'll shut up
im weird
im a relatively quiet person
who talks alot
its weird
i like to listen to people
im getting used to awkward silence
but i hate it
i cant stand a single second
when im not interacting with anybody.
listening or talking
i like to socialise
alot
alot
im weird
im socialising with my blog.
i like to smile
when i have nothing to say
i like to smile
when i know i have alot to say
then i open my mouth
and just babble.
i think i tell bad jokes
dirty ones are fun
i really enjoy those
really! hahaha
tell me more!!
if u al have !
i like! haha
i have a random thought number 25 as well. haha
u will only understand this
if u read my friends blogs :D
yay!
well the 25 wont be a her! duh! aiyoh..
aint my life exciting!
what do i want to grow up to be?
i know!
a superstar!
hhaha
yes!
but please lah!
but thats what i want to be!
i never said it had to be feasible.
i will sing!
and sing!
i like to sing!
emo songs!
emo emo emo
hello singapore idol
arent u fun!
but hey ALEVELS !
wow! ure even more fun!..
diao..
studies..
sing sing sing!
i like art!
i like to draw!
but it takes to much time
im a perfectionist
if i care about something that is..
im dying to talk right now! i want to socialise!! but right now! i have only my blog! hahah tml tml tml
i will socialise! with my class pple! with loggers! with legion pple! with sfx pple! with cj pple! social social social
i hate social studies
im awkwardly quiet
when i meet new people
unless im high
and not alone
hahahah
i hate to be alone
like now.
must talk!
im rambling .
random fact..
im afraid of wet stickers stickers oso if they are dirty..
anne tried to attack me with the donation sticker on sat...
-________-"
ahhh! never do that!
im totally freaked by it!
just like how..
i saw the sticker coming off the mayoniase jar in the fridge
i refuse to touch it
eeeee
i used a towel.
i will not touch that towel anymore..
until someone washes it or i forget.
my blog is lagging
im typing too much.
i wonder if u are boh liao enough to read through my whole blog
i think going out with amelia and amanda is so fun!
esp when they say the same thing at the same time
or when the sing funny 2 part songs together
cos they sound same
so amusing
hahaha
if i had a twin..
i would laugh all day
cos she would laugh all day
at how amusing we can be..
haha
ok lame
i cannot stand
get it?
hur hur
i like lameness
J8 bus stop has a terrifying shop
its curtain roof cover thingy
is full of
DIRTY STICKERS!!!
and they have been previously wet..
i know im weird
i like being different haha
but im a normal person!
im a girl!
yes!
the knees!!
ehehe
what will my bro be called if i had one?
the nephew!!! hahahhahaa
ok
this is a pointless blog post.
its freakin long
yup
l o n g
hur hur
tag my blog!
i like tags!
and letters!
and sms!
not emails!!
i hate emails!!
i love msn!
please dont annoy me on msn
i dont think u know who u are haha
i wont say u annoy me
but u are :D
its ok..
i just ignore ahhaa
i realise
i cannot put on an agry face
easily
i can always remember when i get angry
cos i can count the times on one hand
haha
i tried to put on a angry face for an experiment
i ended up laughing..
i found away to make me laugh!
i like to laugh
i like pple who make me laugh
cos laughing is good
i dont like people
who cannot laugh
really
i cant stand it
espcially when i say something funny
then i laugh
then they never even laugh
spoils the atmostphere
u give me diao look oso can
haha
i laugh at u lor haha
humour is good
i like to be happy!
thats good.
am i not happy?
thats why i want to be happy?
nah
right now i think im just happy.
im glad i came to cj
i just love it
im brainwashing the stoners to go cj..
then next year i'll have a pack of lil minions under me!
yeah!
how cool is that!
haha
i really wonder who will read until this point.
ok good night..
i need a massage...
really i dont mind
anyone
i need a back massage!
unless ur the weirdo from dehli or theone who wanted to meet me and pass me a present
then no
go away
haha
or if ur a wet sticker
then ahhhh i run from u
ok this really was a pointless post.
Hur Hur.
12:05 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
ALAMAK!
tml is my lit exam! and i just read finish the book..just today...and what i finished was...the summary!!!
help me!!
ahhh at least theres unseen...but i havent done an unseen b4!! and i havent done an othello b4!! oh no i need all the luck i can get!
JUST NOW! I GOT BAD LUCK!!
a freako guy added me online...from dehli 25...eee weirdo.. the display pic oso ah...er.... he was like...u sure u dun remember me?... no..not at all u sure? u pulling my leg ah! no. i pulling my hair..cos i really dunno u awww dun pull ur hair..u have such lovely hair...
eeeeeek! go away u bozo! ok well now hes blocked and deleted!! yay!
must delete my stupid hi5 account...which i have not been to in 4 years!!! he got my freaking email there! ahhhhhh
i still remember there was one guy even more freaky..wanted to meet me gimme birthday present.. diao...go to hell haha
anyway..besides that
TODAY I CHAIRED LEGION MEETING!! and im rusty....gahhhhhhhhh!!!! forgot the rosary parts and the frank duff part..and who knows what else! but i was still fun!! and im glad theres no more legion voting! happy happy me!! i really dun like to decide...cos im indecisive..duh! hahahha..
then we took several minutes to decide just to eat lunch! and where! haha...then hid Darren's shoes..he took forever to find it..and never even ask us haha..saw him checking in the dustbin!! hahha cos he thought his classmates did it! so william and i ..the masterminds! said we help him find them..and tada we found them! aha..one was behind the school model and one behind the piano ahha
then we went toapayoh and ate pastamania!!! we= Joan!! William! Darren! Aloy!! then Anne came!! yay! haha
then went to church to study! hahahah was asked to sing for mass..eee no haha...i pang seh-ed anne haha
i love church ahaha
i forgot to go adoration room! so sad! ok tml go longer hahaha if can ahah tml is curia! then maybe novena! adn stupid lit!
yeah...
then at night guess who i saw at macs!
MR YEO!!! AHHHHHHHH
hes from sfx too!! hahaha
he ask me where ive been today i said..
went to school for legion! true! went to study in church! true! went for mass! true! spend time with churchyouth group! true!
i am ur model student! hahahahahaha
MUST TELL ANNE LIM! WINK WINK! HAHA
ahhh cant wait for these days...
wednesday 28 june: end of exams!!
friday and sat 30th and 1st july: council bonding outing!!!
and 3RD JULY!!!: LEGION BONDING FELLOWSHIP FUN FUN DAY! AT EAST COAST GONNA POOL GONNA BOWL GONNA PLAY IN THE WATER AND ON THE BEACH! YEAH! FUN FUN! WITH MY BELOVED LEGIONARIES! YAY! I LOVE LEGION!
unknown day: pri 4/2 outing!! cos cherie's back!! I CANT REMEMBER ANYBODY ELSE AHHAHA
unknown day: prob end of the year..: LOG RETREAT!!! YEAH!!
let me rate my love haahah...er i know that sounds weird! as in love for the fellow groups ahha in my life!
THE RED HOT BILLBOARD!
GOD IS ALWAYS 1ST! HEHE
1.LEAVEN OF GOD!! 2.LEGION OF MARY! aint that cool! u all went up 1 on the billboard! haha 3.32ND COUNCIL PEOPLE! 4.SFX PEOPLE! 5.THE SEVEN! ok this is sad..i hope they dont see this..this went down alot on the billboard.. 6.1T26..this is also sad...better do something.. 7.er the acts? i dont know much pple!! where is everybody!!!
hmmm i see many changes in my life yeah..
i dunno how to body with my fellow music department pple!! ohh noo!! we have 4 pple!! i dun think they will ever reach number 6...or 5 lah... sad...but hod cannot like that...booo ..well i can and with ameilia!!! yay!
and so i pray...
hah~ i always pray..its what keeps me sane ahha
no prayer is like no..water! no air! no GOD! that just cannot do!!
im confused...very confused...well not very..its quite clear..wait now ist kinda misty..i dont know!!! only one person in the entire world knows! besides me! beside my dear God! only 1! and its funny...i dont know her that well but i told her! haha
i just cant open up to the people i know...
sad..
the closer people get
or i get
i close up even more
im sorry log...
ur at the top of the billboard...
then theres my best friend..
i cant tell
dont want to
but maybe i'll tell one in log
i know who
but the time is not yet
and dont think
that i commited a grave sin
i smack u!
im trying out a sinless life
its hard
haha
but!
yeah where was i
oh yar the closer pple are the more i close up
just like how
i cant even tell my parents
how much i love God
how much he has touched me
i cant even lift up my hands to praise him
when theyre there
not even during mass
why
and so i pray
again
its hard
i think i need
a stranger
thats just weird
someone
who knows exactly
who
and what
im talking about
but does not
spill my secrets
to them
haha
wait..
THATS
MY GOD!
I love him!
but hes no stranger.
I like this blog
it listens to me
i listen to me
i realise
.
I guess i will never know
when i'll open up
my feelings
deep down haha
ok that haha was anti climax
the year is almost
over.
its the freaking midyears and i havent study finish! why does time fly so fast! arrggh!
ALOYSIUS! NOT LEGION ALOY CHURCH ALOY! SEE I MENTIONED U!! HAHA AND UR STUPID SONG IS GETTING ME ALL EMO!
I love emo! haha
this is the kinda songs..i want to write but cant.. cos its freakin hard to open up my freakin self!
oh my oh my...aint this a long long post.
theres a freakin exam tml.. why why why why torment me so with the embarrassment of bad grades and the incapability to answer well why why why...
gah
and again i pray...
Hur Hur.
11:24 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
hello! i know my nick says "Nise. Studying is good for me...self psychoing." but im still not studying yet ahah...i mean today only lah...haha
anyway yesterday went for mass then choir practice...and in between..Jon swee joan kris and i recorded some songs!! why? because ..Bored+2Guitars+Jam with the Lamb+Mp3=RECORD YOUR OWN STUPID VOICES! hahaa...well its kinda stupid for some but its nice! let u all hear haha
yeah and i have a new blog song.."who knew" by pink!...but please click on the stop sign on ur window..to stop the friggin! but beautiful song ahahha
ok this one.."As the Deer" by Jon and I cos we thought that that day we played for spiritual prep very nice ahhaha.....theres a surprise ending by..Ahem* Swee!!!! wah piang! I strum Jon pluck!
"As the Deer" ..or the Deer named As...thats what jon calls it.
ok i know we're no experts..all very messy..but! hey! we were bored and we recorded! haha and i like to record stuff haha
i had a weird dream! i dreamt that i had maths class in my own bed room! and i kept sleeping! no matter what! and there was a test! and there were ltc instructors everywhere and they all stayed in my house! and thed continually check up on me if i was sleeping!! haha that cos i told myself to wake up earlier hahaa but i did!! and now..is 2.30! supposedly the time i've been waing up! yeah! and i woke up at 12.30 today! 2hrs earlier! yay! hahah
hmmm..im scared of the legion officer elections...cos i dunno who to vote...and i dunno whether councillors can be voted in.. :( haha and i dunno whether i can tahan...so i went to mass! yar that sing song day! and went to ado to pray for discernment! but i need to go again..and again..i keep getting distracted...:( just like studying...
i want to go for daily mass this week...but...cant today..im going out with friends! ahha ok that sounds bad...but its her birthday! and its a 7even thing...
went for the Father pronuncio's anniversary thingy...dunno what its called actually...then there was this lady..who shared with my family her tangible experiences with God..like how he spoke to her..so clearly..she asked him why? why did she have to go through all this..and God simply said.
"Because i Love you" Felt i had to make this red haha...cos in the bible..what jesus said is always in red hahaha
and she started to cry in the middle of the church...she said "his voice was neither like a man's nor a woman's but it was clear and audible as though someone was just next to you talking to you.. and you know its not like your conscience talking." wow.. and she heard his voice 3 times already!! oh my!..
how i wish i could have a tangible experience with him..well i think i have but im darn forgetful..and blur and blind..so yar...but no matter what...i still have my faith that keeps me going! and i dont have to have a tangible experience just so i can erm...well theres no need! but i'd love to! haha cos i know he loves me..and i have my faith and my Log! hehe ok lar and legion..haha.
so have faith people! and know that he loves you!
:D
Hur Hur.
2:24 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Wah my right arm is aching from badminton...shoulders to...who wants to massage me! ahhaa no really i dont mind...anyone...as long as ur no stranger ahha
Denise
[noun]:
A person with a sixth sense for detecting the presence of goblins
so thats what i saw while was playing badminton on fri....hmmmm
lol lame..
Hur Hur.
12:05 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
hello! today was a ___________day!
went to school for legion meeting! i read so much that i dont like reading anymore..haha then left halfway for lit lesson...wah seh i damn luckyi heard that i came just after my class pple were caught for not doing homework! ahahhahaha
then i waited for legionaries at tanglin cc...for...40 mins!!! wah lau! they all walk from novena lah! wah seh...i wanna falll asleep at the bus stop...:(
but then ms susan yao bought me my lunch! so i was happy! hahah those who played were..ME! Darren Jon chan Alvin Aloysius and william and sr susan! i not bad man! haha aloysius asked me wheter i was in badminton...crazy ah! then i have 4 ccas ahahah...but i did want to join..but lucky i never hahahaha
wah seh play till from 1.30 to 5!
POWER! haha
then brought darren to sfx for mass! my beautiful beautiful church!! and encouraged bel to join legion...but she reject! wah piang! hahaha
so today was fun! esp badminton! william i partner damn fun! everytime win! then go yeah! and hit our rackets together! YEAH! haha oh yar then mr pang came! and he played with sr susan against william and i haha and they copy our yeah! hahaha
i realise...my blog is so...un deep..haha so shallow..so..er...surface stuff..hahaa i used to blog more deeply...but i dont feel like it..HA deal with it...
i know fiona likes to read blogs that are...deep....haha deal with it! hahaha
ok im feeling hungry! hmmm oh yar! cos its 9 and i played badminton! hahahah
Hur Hur.
8:42 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
wow! its like 2 am and i just finished writing frienster testimonials to like 20 pple? i dunno ahhahaha ...omg its addictive! hahaha...i realised...i write more...I GET MORE! AHAHAH i like! hahaha
yar...so write for me testimonials!!! haha
im tired..so much for studying...
today was a "mugging day" with friends...get my drift? hahaha
then fr gerard gave me a shock in the dark in the church basment at night just now so funny! i wrote him a testi too!!! hahaha i wonder if he will approve it...it pretty much nonsense hahaa
i love log! hhaha
and choir pple today were nice...! hahaha and uncle trevor is scary! his guitar too pro lah! hahaa or maybe his approach ahaha
good nighT! or should i say...good morning! not only that but...i bet i wont wake up early enough to greet anyone in the morn...i bet i'll wake up at 1! andi freakin hungry! hahahaha
hmm today..
yiwei owe me 16 bucks! omg! and i owe swee 3 bucks! and i owe jonathan wong 40 cents haha (see i know too many jons that have to specify surname) and anne owes me 3 bucks haha
ahah! do u see a plan!
ANNE U GO PAY SWEE 3 BUCKS K! I LOVE U GUYS!! HAHAHAHA
Hur Hur.
2:13 AM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Ai Yah! im damnned pissed with this blogger bot thingy! so troublesome! after doing the captions for the last one i realised they did not upload all the pics! stupid!!! AHHHHHHHH! SO I HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN! AND NOW IT WILL NOT BE IN CRONOLOGICAL ORDER!!I NEED THINGS TO BE ORDERLY!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH! OK ...wth..damn pissed...messy or not..u cant understand...dont blame it on me...hmph!
Von: EEeee I shy!!..yeah right...haha The Log guys! finally random candid shots...of....SOO!! took this hwen no one was looking! ok...except von.. Rice Nise and Jes! jes u look red ahaha Swee and Soo! the timothys!!! inference skills...hmmm swee is disapproving my attempt to take candid shots of them...and soo thinks his lower lip is tasty and nice to chew! yeah thats it! haha Swee: look at my big white and straight teeth! the will chomp u down to tiny bits and then will i only be happy! Poey: i lick liver!!!! oooohh yay!..Soo: my turn!!...Liver: wanna kiss oso? hahahaha pucker up! nise: the blurry effect is done by lighting and 2 pieces of glass doors hahahaha at accessorise!!! poey: i love power rangers! Soo: i love butterflys!
ok....thats it...u figure the sequence urself...lucky i found choclate or i'll be mad with frustration right now...right now im just kinda stoning...yet fuming...so its not that bad thanx to chocolate! hur hur...
i need to study...but that doesnt mean i am...ahahhahahahahahaha
ok...im still pissed...
i want ltc pics...
Hur Hur.
10:47 PM
OMG! i took like freakin long for this lah! i did the captions like 3 times and then no internet connection!! my unstable internet is killing me lah!...
er anyway today was fun! hahahahahahhaha but i din buy much things....booooooo
I watched shes the man! hahaha cool show....i dont mind watching again..it was nice man..
Rice: eeek! don't take me...haha Bel and I! Best phototaking fren! hahaha 6 of the log girls at cine! its so blue.... again the log girls! and again! ok...so just pick the one u think u look best and save hahaha We love Over the Hedge! jes rice and joan! Rice and I...Nise and Rice are 3/4s nice! haha erm this was taken at this ulu expensive place in far east where i never knew exist till today :D I dont know who took this hahah...but shall upload it anyway...incase jess likes the sight of her face scrunged up haha The Oliver!! hahaha i really cant make up what hes thinking except maybe that he has the hots for the guy in the background .. hehe : Liver! haha must be fantasising hur hur.... I have big terrifying chompers too!!!! hahaha swee: I am enlightened by the yellowness of it all... poey: i will eat soo's face.. liver: hmmm not a bad idea...
Hur Hur.
10:25 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
hahaaha guess what!!! i found a pre ltc picture!!! whahaha so i'll blog abit! hahaah got it from jasmines blog after some blog surfing! ahahhAHAHHA ok...
this ish my preetiful ltc group POWER RANGERS! HA! hur hur..
omg! 3 pple are not here!!! say hello to them anyways....
Hello Charmaine! Hello Petrina! Hello Amelia!
no more right...1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14! all present! haha
ok so ltc pre camp was....er we carried logs...uh played blindfolded games...boring!! ahhahahaha cant remember! but ltc was great!
BUT I REFUSE TO BLOG ABOUT IT UNTIL I GET THE PHOTOS!!!! I AM STUBBORN! HAHAHA
Hur Hur.
11:23 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
havent blogged for a real long time..
shall keep this short. i refuse to give a proper post until i get my ltc and elects camp pictures!!! haha
i just want to say that ltc was great...even though it exhausted me quite abit. the freindships formed were even better..and i started to see people around me in a new light. well anyways...i survived ltc! and elects camp was slack fun!! hahaha
i want the photos!!
oh and i slept for 16 hours today! like omg! but not at one go lah..
tried to study...only for 30 mins...then freakin tired slept already haha ..now im still not studying!! ahhhh! and i did not lose any wait in ltc!!! they feed to much!!! stupid stupid camp!!!! but i love it still! hahaha
haha..something random...i eat an average of 2 meals a day..i have slow metabolism.. haha and in camp they feed us...breakfast luch tea dinner and supper!! omg! thats 5 meals!!
i want the photos!!!
Hur Hur.
9:03 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
im so fulll.....
still sooo fulll..
morning went to buy cake for magdaline..her birthday! bought from cake history! like omg! bread talk so ex lah! tiramisu man!! amazing...i left my house at 10.30 and managed to get everything done and reach sch at 11! wow! i live so near i love it! haha.
was vp for legion today! haha so fun!..everything fun lah...then i read the minutes! which was draggy and disastrous!!! ahahah..Sr denise...no allocated work...hmmm haha then i read standing instructions!! hahaa...yar so i talked alot during legion...ahha and i think the allocutio jon sim gave was very good! yar really! its was lets say..impacting..haha i dont think my grammar is correct but...yar log used to have such teachings too...when teri was around..i miss her man..
then we had cake! joan has wonderful mathematical cake dividing skills! yeah!
then headed off to bishan with joan mag darren and jon chan. and ate sakae sushi buffet!!! alamak! so fullll! darren ate 20 plates!! jon chan ate i think 15 plus..and oan and i ate 9? ahahhahaha wah lau...he eat more than anyone i know hus gona for sushi buffet lah! i still remember yixuan...
imagine...16th plate..
holds sushi with chopsticks.. sushi goes in mouth. chopstick comes out. mouth closes chopstick goes in. sushi comes back out
eeewww!! hahaha..
then mag and jon chan left early..
so the rest walked went back to cardiff...serangoon gardens!! darren had stiches walking to bus stop...i had muscle aches...joan seemed fine hahaha...oh and we 3 had icecream for 5 pple! hhaha the rest forgot their ice cream...mag so sad haha oh yar...jon chan is lactose intolerant! haha
then walked joan to her house!! see so nice! haha anyway..it was 5.30 and mass starts like 6.30!hahaa alot of time ah.. oh and i brought darren to see our PREETIFUL CHURCH!!!! sfx!!! i love sfx!! gave a tour of my church too!! my preetiful church! where God has showered so many gifts on! really! that what i feel! i get high talking bout my church! yay! jonathan wong has long hair! haha he beat jason...yes yes they were being weird measuring hair...
then when i reached home i was super shacked...went to sleep...no dinner for me...no more food please!!!
i told joan...i really need a retreat man...yiss. then she said something that
WHAT THE F*** BUT! ITS 12.40 AM AND I TYPED SO MUCH AND I ONLY RECOVERED THIS MUCH OF MY POST MY MY NECK AND SHOULDERS FREAKIN HURT!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH IM DAMN PISSSED!!!
THIS IS HOW MUCH I WROTE..
THE POINTS THAT IS..
I SAID I LOVE LEGION! I LOVE BEING A JUNIOR! COS I LOVE MY SENIORS! JUST LIKE SAC LEGION OSO! PRAY FOR JUDO GRADING! I THINK IM GETTING SICK! I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I WANT TO LEARN BOUT MY RELIGION! LTC COMING!
GAHH I CANT REMEMBER! BUT ALOT MORE!! OH STUPID BLOG POST!!! AHHHHHH
BLOGGER U SUCK!!
HAHAHA.. BET LATER LOOSE MY WHOLE POST! BETTER BETTER COPY AND PASTE!!
AHHHHH.. TIRED...
IM GONNA....
sleep now.....zzz
WTF!! I COULDNT POST THIS POST AGAIN!! COPY PASTE COPY PASTE...AHHHH
Hur Hur.
12:40 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
haha today was stupid but fun.
was dedciding whether to go for class dinner at steff's house..(i wanna see her house!) or go watch tpjc choir concert with jn and peejay...went to watch the concert instead..i paid 10 bucks hehe..and i miss them haha
soo suddenly..yuxiu msg me....
Yuxiu: “woohoo...i quailfy for b cup bra..just tried a b cup bra and its fits perfectly well!...lol." Denise: "haha congrats! Er..I'm so glad you told me! hahah.."
haha so whole world..! congratulate her! haha
ok so the tpjc concert...pj was late lah..so we walked..fast..haha to victorial concert hall just when the bell rang...choir sang...boring hahaha...we kept talking..spotting how weirdly some pple looked like when they sang..and listening to abit of mp3 haha
then we left during interval! hahah and walked around esplanade abit.
then went back to marina while pj ate her dinner and then we decided to prank call pple! hahaha but we all i the end no guts...i still remember gladys prank calling me hahaha so weird..she was pretending to be the china man...but she laugh so much i only heard static..ahhaha
so i decided to prank call steff house insisting she ordered 50 pizzas...cos my class dinner mah but then call steff phone...She offed it!!! alamak...i plan so long lor hahaha..so i called the rest to get them to use steff hse phone call me...but no one pick up..wth...found out they all watching movie...i wanna watch!
so decided to prank call jn's friend called dinie..she says hes an ass hahaha...wth..hahah so funny..but then he got irritating.. this is what happened...
most of my replies are created with the help pf jn joce and ryl :) ahaha
Nise: Hello is this dinie? this is mary tan from sajc i hope u dont mind i got ur number from one of ur friends. do u remember me?
then at home i got a weird call from private number...the guy was like: EH! Me: hello? guy: oh nvm wrong number sorry...
i bet it was him lah...checking whter guy or gal haha...cos the call was damn weird haha
Dinie:oh mary tan...vivian see fren issit or is it nihat tahib fren? hmmm are u like richards neighbour?
then he call my phone! wtf!! i canceled the call...so scary hahaa..then i told jn to reply him say dun disturb me haha
Then he say
dinie: i think u got the wrong person. im jason. kenny's neighbour. hmmm who is dinie anyway?
me: oh hes this asshole..some loser haha
dinie: really? that guy must have made a huge impact! anyway forget about that guy. im jason lim from rjc rugby team. mary tan sounds like those flat chested pples name.
me:rj rugby sux (no offence!) they lost to sa...so does the name dinie...were ur balls amputated in a rugby match cos jason and dinie sound like a eunuchs name
dinie:hmmm amputate balls? u seem kinda 'smart'. oh wells thats mary tan for u..dun link me with thatguy..i dun even know him..besides u got the wrong number..
me: then stop msging me wah lau..jason oso ass name..
dinie:typical locals. anyway ur prank sucks.is tat wad they teach u back at sajc? (haha he insulted sajc! go bash him! haha) u and jehanne lack the coordination man..that is tip number one! so work on it!
me:whos jehanne?
dinie:oh yea she told me bout u being a flat chested bitch and all..anyway...u wont succeed in pullin a prank on the master of all pranks..so yea u just lack the brains haha
me:come on man u ass..u dun remember me ah? ahaha
dinie:oh yea mary the prostitute in the book i just read? thats the one i can remember so far..haiyah u suck at pranks..hehe go work on it..
me:its sad u enjoy reading about prostitutes..i told her to msg u wan..u were just a random person subject to our boredom..and this is getting annoying...
dinie: hahaha at least i achieve my aim to annoy u, u told jehanne to msg me? oh anyway..yea im ok woth anything?
i din reply liao..cos i dun undertand the last msg? hahaha and plus hes damn annoying...feel like getting back at him one day..
and clement is annoying me on line..stop it lah u ass! not funny..
i wanted to got to steff house...booo! when will i get to go steff!!!!
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