they freaking banned me from trying to long in to my lj...
i forgot the password...bleah.

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE COOKIES! (as in comp cookies)

Hur Hur.
8:59 PM

so here it is. finally.




ok lah im not emo today...in fact im really happy. just that this is an emo blog.
hahaha

so dumb right.

Hur Hur.
1:00 AM

why can't you be happy or encourage me instead of belittling me when i actually am happy about something. :(
then i belittle you and then we end up with whore bitch and slut. but that bits funny.
but still. its not nice.
you make me think what i have is foolish and worthless. great thanks..your a great friend.

niether blogger nor photobucket allows me to upload the pic. =( tml tml tml..

Hur Hur.
3:16 AM

u know after a post like that. i'd go im sorry.

BUT IM NOT OK!


So yeah....i've made an lj..haha lanjiao.
http://nisegoeshurhur.livejournal.com


its gonna be a blog on non-emo ness and non- ididthistodayididthattodaysoyarnopointbutijusttellyou

yup! so its not gg to be a dumb blog. like hey. i dont like dumb blogs that inform you at 3 pm i went to the toilet and my shit looks green or

"i finally passes my gp essay for the 1st time in cj!" --great example.

so yeap.




but im not closing this blog tho. im keeping this blog for all my emo shit. yeah.
so if u dont like emo shit. go the other blog.
not like pple actually care. but yeah the nisegoeshurhur actually shows how nise goes hurhur at everything. seriously. i find everything funny. almost. seriously.
you MUST know why! IF NOT I'D JUST SEEM OVERLY INSANE.

so yeah.

this post aint emo. tis good~



BUT IM STILL A PRISONER!

ok that balances it out! ahahha

i'd add a F*** IT but. hey i wont. i warn pple 1st seee i so nice.

hahahahaha im retarded!
ok see you at nisegoeshurhur! ahha

Hur Hur.
8:44 PM

just smile.




"This Is A Call"

She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It's all right on, as she smiles again her mother lies there sick with cancer,
and her friends don't understand her,
she's a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..

[Chorus:]
She's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you,
and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about.

He tells everyone a story,
because he thinks his life is boring,
and he fights
so you won't ignore him,
because that's his biggest fear,
and he cries,
but you'll rarely see him do it.
He loves, but he's scared to use it.
So he hides behind the music, 'cause he likes it that way.
He knows,
He's so much more than worthless,
he needs to find the surface,
because he's starting to get nervous.

[Chorus]

Have you ever felt this way before?
'cause I don't wanna hide here anymore.
Take me to place where nothing's wrong and thanks for coming, shut the door.
They say someone out there sees us,
Well if you're real then save me Jesus,
'cause I've been here for far too long.
I wasn't meant to feel alone.

[Chorus]

Show me what this life is all about
Show me what this life is all about


She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It's all right on,
and her friends don't understand her,
she's a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..
and she's loud
so you won't ignore her,
because that's her biggest fear,
and she cries,
but you'll rarely see her do it.
Shee loves, but she's scared to use it.
So she hides behind the music, 'cause she likes it that way.


but hey. i know im not the only one who feels like this. so who the hell cares right. best not get pple involved.
im afraid to sit down and talk with them.
nothing good will come out of it.
if i cry. it will just get worst.
you don't know what its like. and dont ask.
just smile back.
i am happy.
i truly am.
with my friends.
im happy making others happy.

CAN'T YOU SEE THAT IT HURTS!
thank God i learnt to ignore..to pretend so it will go away.
and so i smile. and everyday is a happier day.
seriously i should just not try to help anybody!
i dont want past to repeat itself. thank God it stopped for As.
please dont return.

emo emo cannot take it. emo. im sure some goondusami will wonder why there is such a big empty space. if u have read this. please shut up. i need a private blog. like seriously.







thank God for all my friends who make me so happy! and feel so loved! even if they suan me or bully me or make fun of me or try to let me see some porn shit cos they are guys or even if they are my lovely seven who i cannot live without. or my juniors or my fake siblings. i thank you. really.

thank you for filling that emptiness in me above.
thank you God.

Hur Hur.
12:30 AM

I FEEL LIKE IM IN A FUCKING PRISON!


there i said it.

GOD IM 18!

cant i go on a holiday with a bunch of girls!

OR EVEN STAY OVER AFTER PROM WITH MY GODDAMIT BELOVED CLASS THAT I HAVE GROWN TO LIKE SO MUCH!

WTH!

I KNOW IM AN ONLY CHILD! YAR I KNOW! BUT IM NOT CRIMINAL! WHY AM I A PRISONER!
THIS SO UNFAIR AND RETARDED.

LIKE EVEN CHERYL CAN.

WTH.


I HATE THIS HATE THIS HATE THIS.

WAD END OF STORY. BLEAH BLEAH UNREASONABLE! ARGGGHHHH

LIKE I STUDY SO HARD AND ALL THEN I GO OCIP OSO CAN THEN I STUDENT LEADER OSO THEN I TILL NOW HAVENT DIE OSO OR EVEN WANT TO DIE OR CUT MYSELF OR SOMETHING OR EVEN GO CLUBBING OSO I NEVER GO NEVER LIE NEVER DO ANYTHING HORRIBLE YET U WANT TO LOCK ME UP FOR WHAT! DO U WANT ME TO GO AGAINST YOU!

IM NOT A FRIGGIN DOG OK!
I WONT SING WHEN U SAY SING.
OR SHOW MY SHOES WHEN U TALK BOUT MY BUSINESS
AND TALK BOUT COUNCIL
AND CHURCH STUFF

IM NOT SOMETHING BOAST ABOUT!



IM NOT A BLING!








IM A FUCKING PERSON!

Hur Hur.
11:22 PM

i think im relaxing too much.
and im getting a headache..cos i sleep too much.

its like when i see my bed i feel sleeepy.. then i lie on it and poof! ahha
even tho i just woke like 4 hrs ago. ahhaa

currently pimping my own black shoes now.. haha its the 1st pair of shoes i bought...but i did the rest 1st.. at 1st i thought it was ugly..but now its looking much nicer.. theme: music!ahah

i so bored. i should be studying but i find it oh so hard to at home.
slept at 4 yest. doing my shoe and chatting...yilin was hilarious!


Yilin: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Nise: (huhh?)
Yilin: Cos got lizard!

like wth lah..

Yilin: ARE YOU OK! THANK GOD MY KEYBOARD WIRELESS!

wth yilin!!!!! hahaha she standing on chair typing haha

Nise: yes im fine! unless it somehow manages to crawl through the internet ahhaha






I WANNA GO HONG KONG WITH MY SEVEN!!!!!!!!

i need to think of delivery for my pimp my shoe.
hmmmmmm

what do u all suggest?


every sat at certain time meet at orchard mrt?
er collect at my dad's office?
er by post? but must pay for it urself which is bout 8 bucks.

how? any suggestions?
















not like pple actually read my blog... =(

Hur Hur.
9:24 PM

im so freaking bored. its not good to have suck a long break til the next paper.
facebook is getting boring too.
so is friendster.
and ive finished watching all the new eps for bleach shakugan no shana and zombie loan.

(i wonder how ive come to like anime)

now all i can do is blog!.

even playing the guitar is getting boring! omg!
no wayyyyy

and singing that same old song again and again and aain just for
is super boring.
i can fall asleep halfway!

i wanna learn something new. get hooked onto something.
but i cant.
i can only get hooked on to studying ..which i cant. and getting hooked onto anything else will just make me feel guilty.

that reminds me. i want a tatoo. hahaa
i know i said i'd never get one but haha.
to me its art. aha

u know. right now. thinking plainly and simply.
id be real content.
as a future job.
or jobs.
pimping shoes.
doing gigs.
teaching guitar.
and tatooing people.
ahhahahahahaha

yup the last one is true.

sounds like im a rebel or something lah hahah.

but besides that. i wanna hang out with my friends. haha

i just dun wanna be a waitress. im too spoilt i dont wanna wash plates and get dirty. haha
but i might like work at stores.
but u know me..i wont mind working anywhere that has friends.
or people my age so i can make friends. ahha

im crazy. making friends makes me really happy.
like really.






i wanna learn the piano.
i wanna sing like juliet simms.
i wanna draw.
and get a tatoo.
and tatoo people.
and cut my hair so its stylable.
and streak one part of it green.
and learn the electric guitar.
learn to scream properly.
and make friends.
and write songs.
and for my tongue to grow longer so i can try beat boxing and not eat up my words when i sing. ahhahahaha
and i wanna go thailand and look after the babies. aha

babies make me happy!



wow i want so many many things!
but i have. none!

I AM A LOSER!'

RUHHHHHHH!

i want to be all those. OR. and damn freaking rockstar. haha
OR! A music producer!
or a fmous artist!
or an actress! haah

wahh im living in the world of mtv

OH YEAH OR A DJ!
AHHAA


mtv is influential.
but hey..there a reason i watch that and no other channel.
i love music.

heck.

i hate studying for As and its making me feel guilty!

u know..
i get bored so eaily.
if i were a sim as in the game...not like justin sim...(i can so imagine him saying..like me? ahha)
i'd be those poularity driven sims..
who social meter decreases at a super exponetial rate.

and so.
im bored!
so bored that im talking to myself!

like thats why im on msn all the time!
so pple will talk to me! hey! i dont really talk to pple! but i like it when pple talk to me ! hahaha im crazy!

heck! im an only child. i have no siblings to talk to..and my parents! u want me to talk to them? huh..crazy.. i'll just get annoyed.. ahaha
and then they'll just ask me bout As and stuff and my future and bleah.

so here i am talking to myself on my blog.
unless u are reading this..then hey! im talking to u
ahha

and that makes me happy!

talk talk talk.. ruhh..
i like to talk to people.
thats why i like to make friends!


and soooo.
im a loser!
haa


ruh ruh ruh.


do i really behave like a small kid!?
i think i do. but heck i dont think that way hahhaa
i may trust that way but not think that way.
thats why it seems i have the words "suan me" on my forehead.
if i think. i think emo.
and heck thats not a child. thats like 50/60 something depression. haha

no lah.

blogging makes me emo.

Hur Hur.
8:56 PM

THANK YOU LORD FOR MAKING MATHS PAPER 2 SUPER EASY!!!!!
:)


haha after the 1st few questions i felt damn hot ahhahaa cos i got flustered that i could do the paper so easily ahhahahaha.
hahhaha the paper made me blush!! hahaha so dumb!

denise is weird... weird... but seriously..i thought id have come down with a fever or something...i had to like fan myself in the exam hall lah..in the airconditioned exam hall ahha.

and somebody's BO was SUPER STRONG LAH! OMG



yay im so happy!

then went out with log!!! i love love love log! log is nice nice pple still! i miss gg out with log!! but i wished more couldve come ... :(


and stardust is niceeeeee!!!! haha damn funny.

the goat man damn funny! hahahaha
his name is billy! hahhaa

the story quite nice haha i thought it was damn dumb at 1st haha
but its not! its not bad! haha go watch!


(evil witch about to slash hero's throat. then she hesitates..looks around and slices the girls ropes making her free) (everybody shocked)

Nise: (confused) omg what is she doing?
soo: emoing.
Nise: what..... -____-"
(witch starts to get emo)

wth lah!!!! hahaha
but it didnt end like that lah ahaha wont spoil the show! haha

damn funny. really.

wah but i still feel quite hot leh.. like temp lah!
i think i came down with a fever haha but dun feel sick leh. ahhaha


maybe its cos of sophia. haha too much of the omg nice song. ahha

shall put it on my imeem with the alltime low and juliet simms duet hur!



"Sophia"

5 o' clock and a fire escape symphony,
Spilling out across the road and the square,
And the sky's the same as your own, do you think of me?
Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves, reach you, there?
After the rain, in the lonely hours he haunts me, calling out,
Again and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning.
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town,
Learn the language, form the words when I speak,
But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around,
And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence,
Every word, every line, a measure,
It's the science of the soul,
And his books, they breathe a reason and now I want to know...

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

You, with your new born eyes,
Have you ever loved a man like I love him?
Do you hurt but still feel alive, like never before?
Oh, Sophia, Sophia.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning,
It's a fire, it's a fire, I cannot put out,
Sophia, Sophia, I'm learning that some things,
I can't go without and one of of them is him.

Hur Hur.
11:27 PM

Omg. Juliet simms is super shit ass cool!
shes the coolest girl rocker ever! omg omg! like really. her voice is omg. but shes not famous! why! thats not possible! rahhhh!

i love your voice!!!! how do you do it!!!



wahh
its like half really good singing half screamo.
the kinda rock music i like.

MY GAWD.


its so not fair.
you know when you try to sing like screamo..ur ur voice is kinda stuck like that..so u cant like sing sweetly...so u have to condition urself..

its not fair!
how to sing like celine dion and juliet simms at the same time..
both songs will sound like crap.

sweet song become rough...rough song become sweet.


heck i'd choose rough. but i cant even afford to try it yet. nevermind..a few more days and then i can try it out.


and i'm not talking about As..

hmm maybe it will sound nicer...NOT!








you get what i mean...

and my clb die....no more merit..merit means distiction...

haha today i was whining to my friends..

"wehhhh i cannt get merit anymore"
friends: "what??!"

not married... hahaha

Hur Hur.
10:13 PM