those miserable days ♣

Sunday, March 25, 2007

ok my blog died again

few things few things...that occured lately

i love 1t08...they so nice :)

i have loads of photos..im lazy to send...or blog up..

im confused..like always..

my guitar i realised is damn noob.

i need to start mugging

im slacking

i have no timetable and it sucks..

i sorta miss pe..
i know that sounds strange but theres an abosolutely perfect sensible reason for that..

i think im a wreck..(is that how u spell it?)

i miss the fencers aha

i think im pmsing..

mr bean is hilariously funny...watch the movie..

im starting to like 2t26 more..plus the classroom

i have to sleep more..because my doctor says im stressed.. heh

and i realised im a damn selfish girl.

shit.

and i dun feel like doing anything bout it.

i want to spend time with myself.

going out with parents is stressful.

many people irritate my these few days...never realised this until recently..

i dont really hate..

except one.

its ok if he knows.

i hate him.

it was fine but its getting worse.

dang...im an angsty emo teenager..

and i think my blog can only reach a level of emoness...like a very low level..

cos..

im not one to wear my heart on my sleeve.

now i giggle.

as usual.

hur hur.

great.

Hur Hur.
12:27 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

im going off for a retreat.
legion retreat.
doesnt feel like im gg tho.
it was so sudden.
the reality hasnt sunk in yet.

so strange. i wont be on msn haha.

went to support aloy's band's gig today!
i didnt know it was a rock band competition ahaha
not bad.
1st time i went ot bar..the rest of the girls too.
but i was the only paranoid.
quite disappointing.
didnt get to use a sharp object on a jerk. ahha
didnt bring one.
and no there wasnt enough stuff to grab and hit.
no stun gun either haha.
i just hated the smoking matts.

haha and mag self invited herself.. how thickskinned is she man! hahaa but more the merrier!

my aiming very good aha.

he looks crazy. hah

i know emoticons for this!

x.x and O.O

hahahah

bbyyee im tired..

tml i got sudden retreat! ahaha

sounds like war..

doubt it will be good tho.

im too stubborn an individual to change myself.

right now that is.

Sorry.

God.

i want ig29 outing soon!

slacking at mingxuans house then chomp chomp! sounds fun!

that means there will be jamming ahah.

Im wanting all the wrong things for the wrong reasons. :(

gahh i cant make this but like invisible with this skin..shall change to a white one soon.

Hur Hur.
12:04 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

i just went to canossaville childrens home today :)

Nice.

I dont regret going..its like an experice you really treasure.

Did Pnw for the kids with anne on the organ..
i dun like organs hahahaa
i prefer keyboards...but oh well..

it was alright...but strange..cos these naughty kids refused to sing properly aha

but they so cute.
they idd emo version of power of ur love.

bear bear was kinda pissed.

oh yeah and tereasa and michael went too! im sure they enjoyed themselves too getting wacked and poked till our hands all became red.

the kids like me!!! hahahahahaha
they keep wanting to play games with me haha

and a lil girl said i sing very nice ahhaa
ask me why i dun go join campus superstar..
i was like..i cannot speak chinese..
huh? then u learn wad?
chinese.
hahahahhahaa

they damn cute...they are like at the age where they wanna act cool and mature ahhaa but are not ahhaa. ranging from 7 to 13 i think

i wanna go back..they so funny.

they called me teacher! just cause i played the guitar..then they called me aunty and until i made them call me jie jie. anne became aunty too and michael billabong cos thats what he was wearing aha

when they found out i was 18 they were like huh? they thought i'd be older? im like huh? i tot i look like 15 or something...they thought i was like 20 plus.

anyway. it was good. playing for the kids..its hard to help them do pnw tho..cos i believe they're not mature enough to open up i guess.

well..thats as close to a gig ive ever gotten...
booooooooo this sux.
wait does the Pnw for retreats and the real rockish one for the sec3s (at that time) count? ahahah
lol..my life sux.
im not qualifed! better prac on my guitar and singing..and find like a good person to harmonise with who plays guitar too..that be awesomely cool! haha

and anyway

GOOD LUCK TO ALOYSIUS! WHOSE GONNA DO HIS 1ST GIG THIS FRI!! shit..ur earlier than me ahha...

what happened to how now purple cow..ahhahaha

i see no future...unless i get As..
die.
havent seen that since sec 4.

My perfect world...

i'd be like painting and sculpting all day and drawing whilst composing music and doing gigs..sooo coool so slack..the life.

Hur Hur.
12:15 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

I've been blog surfing..

rockafella posts..

I like what i see! ahhaha
i see my name many many:) ahhahaa

i see many nice new testimonials :) :)

i see i need to practice if amelia wants our band to do arts week haha

i see i need to study if i wanna do well for a levels x.x

i see that...wooooooooooooooh rockafella so rocked so many peoples socks ahha

and i lost 2kg in 3 days! wooots! hahah
u see..the stress! well..haha rockafella turned out AWESOME!

Hur Hur.
7:31 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

OMG! ROCKAFELLA 3 WAS FREAKING AWESOME!!!!! AWESOME!!!! IT ROCKED MY SOCKS!!! I WAS JUMPING HERE AND THERE DANCING AROUND ! AHHAHAHAHA SO COOL! PEOPLE WERE ILLEGALLY MOSHING! BUT I DONT CARE!!!!

SERIOUSLY! I THINK WATCHING IT ALL BACK STAGE WAS BETTER THAN AT THE BACK AHHAHAHAHAHA SERIOUSLY!

IT WAS LIKE LEGAL MOSHING AREA! AHHAHAA WITH THE BACKSTAGE CREW AND BANDS! HAHAHA

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
WE SET THE STANDARD DAMN HIGH!!!!

BRO PAUL ENJOYED HIMSELF! HAHAHA

J1S! SEE IF YOU CAN DO BETTER! AHHA BETTER INVITE ME BACK! FREE TICKET! HAHA

AHHHHHHHH!!!

IT WAS A HUGE SUCCESS!!!!

SO MANY CRASHES! SO MANY PEOPLE WANTED TO GO SEE IT! IT ROCKED THE HOUSE DOWN!!!

GOT TO MAKE SO MANY NEW FRIENDS AS WELL WITH THE INTERNS AND THOSE PERFORMING HAHA ALL THE MANY SMSES TO PASS DOWN AND STUFF

AND OMG! ALL THE DIFF PROBLEMS! AND CRAZY SOLUTIONS! LIKE CHANGING SCHOOLS AND BRIBING TO GET IN AUDITIONS (HAHA NO..WE DID NOTGIVE IN ) AHAA NOT EVEN OUR BAND AHHA! AHHAHAHA

LUCKILY WE DID NOT PLAY! SPOIL ROCKAFELLA AHHAHA

AND OMG!!! ALL OF THOSE WHO PLAYED FREAKING COOLLL!!! YOU GUYS ARE SO COOOL! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHA NOW I HAVE COOL FRIENDS AHHAA SO IM COOL! HAHAHA WHATEVER! :p

AND IM TALKING IN CAPS! COS IT WAS SO FREAKING GOOD I DIDNT WANT IT TO END!

MUST REALLY SAY THAT JULIUS DID A GOOD JOB!!! EVERYBODY CLAP!!
AND GERARD AS WELL! COULD SEE HOW STRESSED HE WAS AND TIRED TOO AFTER BONDING GAMES FOR 02... AND SHAWN AS WELL! HE OSO STRESSED AND HELPED OUT ALOT! AND SHAM ALSO! ESPECIALLY IN THE EARLY STAGES OF PLANNING..
WOAH YOU GUYS ROCKED! JASON ALSO! DID SO MUCH MORE THAN EMCEE HAHA

YAY!

I THINK ROCKAFELLA WAS THE BEST CJ EVENT IVE EVER HELPED PLAN.

INDEED. THE BEST!

HEY! MUSIC IS LIKE WOAH TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY AREA! MY PASSION!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!
HOW COULD I RESIST NOT BEING IN THE ROCKAFELLA COM! HAHA

AND ALSO...

I AM MOST PROUD OF THE PEOPLE I FACILED!!!!!!!

RUBEN PANG!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! BEST GUITARIST!!!!
MING XUAN!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! BEST DRUMMER!!
GARETH!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! BEST VOCALS!!！

WAHHHHHHHH!!!

ARENT I A GREAT FACIL!!!! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

WELL..THEY ARE ALL THE BEST TO ME!!! HAHAHAHA
MY J1S!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!
SO HAPPY SO HAPPY! HAHAHAA

IF YOU ALL BECOEM A BAND BETTER MAKE ME UR MANAGER! HHAHAHA

I WANT TO REPEAT YESTERDAY! HAHAHA
AGAIN I SAY! AGAIN!!!

AHHAHA

I THINK IT WAS WAY BETTER THAN O2 AHHAHAHAHAHA
EHHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEEHHEEHEH OOPS
BUT YEAH! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHH EVEN THO OUR BAND DIDNT GET TO PERFORM... ITS OK!!!! I WAS STILL LOVING IT! AHAHAHAHAHAHA

AMELIA WANTS US TO PERFORM AGAIN FOR ATRS WEEK...HAHA OK!
BUT SEEEING ALL THE BANDS PERFORMED LAST NIGHT...HMMM...WE BETTER PRAC EVERYDAY!!! HAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SUDDENLY FELT SOOOOOOOOO
FULFILLED! HAHAHAHAHAHAH

AND I SAW..
ALOT OF CHICKEN. HAHA (PUN)

I WANNA WEAR MY NEW DRESS.. AHAHA BUT NO OCCASION HAA

WE MUST HAVE 02 FACIL PARTY!!!!!! SO I CAN WEAR MY DRESS!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
AND NOW I'M 18 SUMMORE I CAN DRINK! HAHAHAH

ER..NO IM NOT WILD .

HAHA

ER..
MAYBE ROCKAFELLA MADE ME A LIL WACK!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!

AND SERIOUSLY...I REALLY WANTED TO THANK
THE ILLEGAL MOSHERS!!!
HAHA WHO REALLY MADE THE ATMOSPHERE...

AWESOME!

ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY
ROCKAFELLA=AWESOME=SUCCESS=NISE=HAPPY

:)

Hur Hur.
6:04 PM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

I JUST REALISED...

theres a snail on my blog...yuck.

and i'm too tired to blog bout my birthday now or orientation

tml is rockafella...

:)

Be there..or be oblong!

heh!

TEJANO!

I WAS SO HIGH

what! you mean theres O2 tml!
heh.

hello new ig...
sobs to old one..
but welcome new one..

ahhh aiya i so tired..

luckily i took 2 panadol extras
my headache kinda went away when soul blew their wistles...so did my tolerance tho hah

eeee snail.

Hur Hur.
10:04 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

OMG! I THINK THIS IS MY BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!

A big thank you and hug to the SEVEN!!!!! i Truly love you guys...i can see us lal growing old together all wrinkly and stuff! hahaaha

haaha they so shocked me today!!!!!!! ahhhh

shall blog tml...mum's nagging!

but i must tell you!

and their present they gave me..
its PRICELESS!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

(IN NO RANDOM ORDER)

YILIN
JEAHANNE
CHERYL
JOCELYN
PEIJIN
SHIRLEY!

:)

you guys make me happy !

seee thats why im always so cheery!

Hur Hur.
12:02 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

LET ME PRESENT YOU..AMELIA DIZON!

THE WINNER OF MY PRECIOUS GUITAR! HAHA

WITH A WINNING BID OF $105 haha

NICE DOING BUSINESS WITH YOU!

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Today was the shittiest yet one of the nicest days i have experienced :)

its was shitty because...during econs common test..

I HAD MY VERY 1ST MENTAL BLOCK!

yar! omg i wanted to cry during the exam...

stared at the paper for 1 hr...

so its blank.

and mr renganathan purposely stand next to me when the exam finished..idiot.

then i was sulking. until clement turned around and said..."how was the paper!"

" hmmm you dont look so happy"

"i got mental block"

frown

big from

big big frown

WEHHHHHHHHH

yeah i cried..

paiseh.

1st time i cried this year..

clement! your fault! hahahahaha kidding!

then when nathan walk by i pretended to sleep instead.. haha i hate him. wun let him see i cry the idiot!

well its no one's fault but mine...i cried not because i would fail...i cried because..

econs is the only paper i actually studied properly for!!! and the hardest for!

and then i mental block on this paper which i was planning to get at least a D for!

oh yeah...i know why i had mental block.

last night i slept for 2 hrs only.

the day b4..3

the day b4..4

so yeah...i was a walking zombie

you know what the feeling is like..

it sux

big time

1st i read through the case study...it was alright...except..i felt really lethargic.

forcing myself to stay alert..was even a lil painful

and no i was not sleepy! i din even feel sleepy...more like no energy..

then came the 1st essay question..

did the intro..

then how to spell that word...

that simple word..

tried to spell it 7 times...and finally correct

then

what am i supposed to do next?

shit! what topic is this...

oh yeah that topic

stone

whats this topic about!

think! i just revised it last night!

shit..

stone

multiplier is k..

so...what about it? ahhhhhhhh

stone

shit so tired..

skip to next essay..

elasticity...

stone

whats PED again?

huh how come i dunno!

panics

means...price..er demand...er...

oh. i got it..

how to apply...

huh? football match can apply?

how? i dunno?

panics

got demand anot?

i think so?

so what?

i dunno..

panics

stone...

thinks...

omg..is this mental block?

thats pretty much it.

i managed to write a

whole lot of crap for elasticity..

looked deecent...wait till u read it..

i think i have block...

eh whats it called ah?

stone

goes back to 1st essay..

er..multipler is k..

so?

i dunno...

i think i have brain block..or head block

forget it.

stone..

oh thinking block issit?

stones for 15 more min b4 times up...and sees mr nathan next to me

shit u go away..

im gonna stone..

go away..

yar like i always do..

no wait i sleep

now i will stone her...go ahead...watch me stone..

cos i cant think of any f***ing thing to write.

cos i have a f***ing mental block!

oh..so thats the word!

great..

thats my entire mental block process

so apparently after i cried..there was a frown plastered right on my face that said....eh she looks so sad for some reason that you should ask her why..

about 5 people asked me that..

and then i whisper...

mental block...

wehhhhhhhhhh!

followed by many versions of consolation like how its only cts so dun worry..and like i oso kenah b4..

hahaah

but then

the girls came!!!!!

audrey yuxiu nana steff claire daph

and cheered me up abit..

and then we went out..

and i was happier abit..

and then i saw a funny quite old lady fall on one the our cj guys in the middle of a group of cj guys..

it was funny..the lady had a funny expression on her face haha

was tempted to say...she fell for u hahaha but i dunno them and i was supposedly sulking

and thats when i realised i felt better haha

then spending more time with them made me feel better!

and happier!

and we talked about scary movies and had big gelato icecream where they treated me my share :)

and we went shopping! and bout nail polish! and they so sweet..

i saw this cool beans sunglasses! (cool beans is quoted from audrey...i tot it was cool shoes haha)

but i din wanna buy today..wait til sunday shopping day! it looks damn cool!

then oh well we went to go see some stuff 1st while claire and daph went to eat their lunch

and after more shopping we went to meet them at where they ate and suddenly..

DENISE THIS IS FOR YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

IT WAS THE SUN GLASSES! OMG!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH

YOU GUYS SO SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL SO LOVED AHHA

THANK YOU!!!!

I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA

then i kept smiling all the way back till i reached school

(i somehow got a lil lost in the process due to my grogginess and happiness)

and by the time i reached school i was stoned...

from continuous laughing and smiling to walking and stoning..

that i stoned more

and mr pang said i looked like i just came out from the war hahaa.

but i was aleart! haha

and not sleepy..

just lethargic aahaha

but i dun think i was quite sane..

so since i have not slept..

im not quite sane.. aha eh.. i dunno maybe ..eh ahha

for sure right now i no mental block..i can remember somuch stuff aha

and sorry legion pple..i had to leave early..

cos if i felt i'd stay any longer i would stone and never wake up ahah

today was..interestingly good.

tml i have a 5.5hr break.

thank goodness for anne who will company me and some j3s..

see you guys in clb!

wehhhh

Hur Hur.
9:34 PM