Ok im leaving for ipoh from tml until 5th june....

i've not packed yet..

10 things on my mind right now.

1. I'll miss my friends and family.
2. Prayer room was extremely hot.
3. My new slippers are so cute
4. Im pettily angry at you even tho i have no reason to be.
5. Im afraid of bringing my GC to ipoh.
6. My neck keeps hurting
7. Im confused.
8. Bleach and damn damn damn nice to watch...
9. I hope moo moo's doing fine
10. I'll miss you and you. haha.


i dont feel like going yet.
my nails are baby blue and yellow.
this is my 1st time gg overseas without my parents...




PLEASE FLOOD MY FRIENDSTER! HAHA
the link is above haha



I dont want to emo at night over silly matters.
its a waste of time.

so now i will HARDEN!
HAHAHA LAME. OK
sounds wrong too.
pls.













i feel like im leaving spore for good haha
i hope Ipoh turn out to be AWESOME!


FLOOD MY FRIENDSETR HAHA

AND U CAN STIL MSG ME..IM ON AUTO ROAMING :)

Hur Hur.
10:46 PM

Spa was ooooooooooooooooooooooooohk...
hahaha means i dunno if its good or bad at all cos its the 1st time im doing skill A..like as a practice oso...ahhhh die ahhaha

then after that cheryl came to my house! yay! like last time :)
we ate cup noodles mac and chees and soup from australia ahhahahaa
i think it tastes chinese ahhahaa

and we watched just follow law! so funny...

then we explored my neighbourhood!!! WAHHHH SO HOT! BUT SO FUN!
AND THE HOUSES SO BIG! BIGGER THAN LINUS'S HOUSES!!! LIKE BUKIT TIMAH LIKE THAT LAH! HAHAHAHAHAHA
LIKE WOAH!
SEEING ALL THOSE HOUSES MADE ME SAD..COS I FELT POOR HAHAA
THEN I SPENT 1 HR DESCRIBING TO CHERYL MY DREAM HOUSE HAHAHA
WAHHHHHHH SOOO NICE..ITS A PALACE AHHAHAA

i was like..GOD PLEASE GIVE ME 1 MILLION BUCKS..NO 10! NO 20!
WONG: AIYA ASK HIM GIVE YOU 1 BILLION LAH!
ME: AIYA MUST BE MORE REALISTIC MAH.....

HAHA NISE WTH...
I WAS THINKING ALONG THE LINES OF..
10 MIL SPEND ON HOUSE..THE OTHER 10 MIL SPEND ON LIFESTYLE AHHAHHA
ENOUGH ALREADY! HAHAHHAHA
DUN NEED 1 BILLION... AHAHHAHA

OK.....

BTW...WE LEFT THE HOUSE AT 4.30 AND CAME BACK AT 8.30 BUT SPENT ONLY 2 HOURS OF CONSTANT WALKING AHAH
DUNNO WHERE THE 2 HRS WENT...
THIS WAS OUR ROUTE..

LEFT OF MY NEIGBOURHOOD.
RIGHT OF MY NEIGHBOURHOOD
SERANGOON AVE 3...
LOR CHUAN..
NEW TECH PARK (WE CHILLED THERE FOR A BIT AND EXPLORED THE OFFICES! AHHAA)
BRADDELL ROAD...
BISHAN AVE SOMETHING..1?
BISHAN AVE 3?
POKS HOUSE!!! HAHAAH (we were like..i think we're lost..wait isnt this..POKS HOUSE!!!!)
so we decided to call him and wake him up and we waved and saw him from his window ahha so funny..spore really is tooo small)
J8!!!!

YUP!

FROM BRADDELL ROAD TO SERANGOON AND BISHAN...ALL IN 2 HRS OF WALKING! WOW!
HAHAHA SOOOOO SMALL SPORE...


anyway thanks kian for offering to look after moo moo!
yay! im sure it will be well taken care of!
even tho u said u have a cat....and a younger sis who might kill it...
hahahahaha
but mooo mooo is brave!!! i hope! hahaha
:)


i have yet to clean its cage ahhahaha
aiyo..i so lazy...

mooo moooo is so cute...
cant wait for ipoh..:)

AND I CANT WAITT FOR THE 6TH OF JUNE!
NOT THAT ITS ZIYANS BIRTHDAY...BUT! HAHAHA (AT LEAST I GIVE U SOME CREDIT! SEE I RMBR!)
IM GG OUT WITH THE SEVEN TO WATCH SHREK!! AND ITS DRESSS DAY!!!! YAY!!!!

UHM! UHM! UHM!

AND NOW IVE GOT A HEADACE AHHAA TOO MUCH WALKING...
HAEMOGLOBIN GIRL CMI HAHAHAHAHAA
I SUAN MYSELF...

UHM! UHM! UHM!

I GOT MY ALLOWANCE YAY! HAHAHA
DUNNO WHY I SPENT SO MUCH LAST MONTH..I ATE INTO 100 BUCKS OF THIS MONTHS ALLOWANCE..DIE!

OHEH! IM OFF THE CLEAN MOO MOO'S CAGE!

Hur Hur.
10:50 PM

UHM UHM UHM! SO FUNY TO SAY!

UHM!

MAKES ME FEEL LIKE MUNCHING!! NOOOOOOOOO!


THE WEATHER IS SUPER HOT!
SO HOT THAT I COULDNT EAT FINISH MY CHICKEN MCSPICY COS I FELT THAT I HAD TO EXPLODE IF I CONTINUED DUE TO THE HEAT...


ANYBODY WANT TO HELP ME LOOK AFTER MOOOO MOOOO!!!!! MY PET HAMSTER!
I'LL BRING ITS CAGE TOO!
FROM THE 3OTH MAY TO 6TH JUNE! COS I HAVE OCIP AND MY PARENTS DUN DARE GO NEAR IT HAHA


I BOUGHT RAINBOW GLASSESSS!! HAHAHA IM SO HAPPY! ITS SOOOO FUNKY!

STUDIED WITH LING IN GARDENS TODAY! UHM! HAHA AND SHE MADE FRIENDS WITH MAG AND VON! YAY!
HAPPY HAPPY DAY!

AND I ATE 5 CHICKEN WINGS ALL BY MYSELF!! AHHH DIE DIE HAHAA
SO FATTENING!
HAHAHA

AND IM ON A COMPETITION DURING THE HOLS!
TO LOSE WEIGHT WITH LING WONG AND WENDY AHHAHAA SO FUNNY!
THE ONE THAT LOSEST MOST ALL WILL BUY A PRESENT!
THE ONE THAT LOSEST LEAST WILL HAVE TO BUY DRINKS FOR ALL!
AND THERES ALSO A WINNER FOR THE PERSON WHOS FACE SLIMS DOWN MOST AHAHA
SO RETARDED..BUT OK!

:)
I WILL DO MY BEST...
HAHHAHA

UHM UHM!




I DONT KNOW WHY EVERYBODY WANTS TO EAT MY HAMSTER!!!!!!!
HAHAHA
HAMSTER BAO IS POPULAR! HAHAAHA
ITS TOO CUTE! EVERYBODY WANTS TO EAT IT UP! HAHAA

AHHHH PHYSICS SPA A IS TML! DIE DIE!!!

DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE




I HAVE A BABY BLUE GC
BEAT THAT AHAHAA

Hur Hur.
10:23 PM

Lit was ooooooooooooooooooooook...
means i should get an E.... hahaha i hope ahhaa
and it means i could do well for great ex..but i have a feeling that i kinda went off topic cos i suddenly know so many things after studying ahhahaha

then the poetry i understood...but i know all the basics..and only uncovered one discovery! that i udn think is even hard to find..bleah...

and othello i which i thought i wouldnt even have time to finish...30 mins..
i completed! very general but i completed! ahhaha

so yeah..i completed everything..and went with instinct...cos i had no watch...wahhh damn stressful can..no watch...




i shared my sweets from aussie today! to many many! many many liked it! it ws super sweet but only a few dun really like..
wong, ling, ferlin (its psychological i tell u ahaa)
Clement and another guy who i see always but dunno the name.
5 pple didnt like it..fine.. ahhaa

pple who said shiok ah!
Denise!!!! hur hur me!
David!!!
Andrea!
beverly! (i tell u its really psychological)
Dom! He at 4 sticks haha

the rest say not bad.. ahahaha

ITS FULL OF SUGAR!!!!!! HAHAHA I LIKE!!!!

i feel im getting old..my necks starting to get a constant pain...
pain in the neck ahhahahaha
wahhhh sehhh..
maybe cos i crack too much...

I WANNA PUT A YOUTUBE ON MY FRIENDSTER TOO! HAHAHAHA
SO FUN...BUT I VERY LAZY...







I WANNA SING AGAIN...
I HAVE STOPPED SINGING FOR SOME REASON...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
AFTER THAT HORRENDOUS ZAO SIA INCIDENT..
I SHOULD JUST STICK TO MY VOCAL RANGE THATS BEST
AND TRY TO GO HIGHER BIT BY BIT...BUT ITS DRASTICALLY HIGHER THAN SEC SCH ALREADY AHHAHA

i just watched america IDOL! halfway! hahaa
its getting boring...
AND I REALISED ALL THEIR SONGS DAMN LOW!!!
CHEATERS! AHHAHAHAHA I OSO CAN HAHAHA
AIYA..I SAY ONLY WAN...
hahahahaa

suddenly i look in the mirror and my hair looks good.
hahahhahahahahaha

I REALISED! THAT I AM VERY EMBARRASSING COS I AM VERY LOUD AND UNGLAM!
AND I REALISED THIS VERY LONG AGO!
ITS ON MY FRIENDSTER..THATS HOW I DESCRIBE MYSELF...
SO IF YOU JUST REALISED! AND YOU KNOW ME FOR HOW LONG ALREADY....
WHATS UR PROBLEM! I FOREWARNED YOU! HAHAHAHAHA
I LIKE TO UNGLAM....
SOMETIMES I DO IT ON PURPOSE...
ITS FUN...

THATS WHY SOMETIMES YOU HEAR ME 1ST B4 YOU SEE ME HAHAHAHAHA


AN AUNTY THOUGHT I WAS INDIAN...


that reminds me...im confused...what am i? ahhaha
like..i know my race...im a chinese by blood...but im still confused...

can you tell me what am i? hahaha

my Mum's side is from indonesia...so they are indonesian chinese..
they dont speak chinese...they speak malay and teochew...

my dad's side is from God knows where...But they are chinese..but my dad says they are straits born chinese...whassat? ahahha they speak malay..like totally..and speaks a little hokkien..they eat like totally peranakan food...and my grandma looks totally malay..and my grandfather looks totally indian..hes black..like black black..or dark chocolate brown..due to fishing i suppose hahaha

but i am chinese by blood...
my chinese teacher last year says im a baba..but whats that..
am i peranakan? i dun even know whats that lah...i tot its malay marry chinese..but i have no malay blood.

all i know is im confused...since dunno how long
and all i know is that my chinese sure sucks cos no one knows how to speak chinese except me and i dunno why the hell do i have to take chinese which i am so bad at...

yes thats my excuse....
i think its rather valid ahaha


HELP ME CLASSIFY MYSELF HAHAHAHA
SO LAME...

you know i didnt know i was chinese until i was like 7...
all along i thought i was an english girl..
i spoke the lingo i had the slang
I WASNT EXPOSED TO CHINESE OR SINGLISH!
UNTIL PRIMARY SCHOOL..
ok so i was exposed to it in kindergarten..but heck i thought chinese was art lessons spoken funny hahaha
WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS CHINESE I CRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

HUR HUR...
im noob.

Do i look chinese?
i think so...but i dun look cheena....
i should ask my parents where my grandparents come from..
i think my maternal grandad said im related to a emperor in china..
AHHHH IM CHINESE..AND IM STILL IN SELF DENIAL! HAHAHA

let me show you my self denial thought process...
hur hur othella was about self deception...
ok i shall do both.. self-deception was said to be the greatest of all evils aha but oh well!!!

1. My eyes are too big too be cheena..cheena pple have slits haha( ok i so bad i know stone me)
2. I cannot speak chinese for nuts..FOR NUTS!
3.I'm totally sian of chinese food and love peranakan food! I love chilli!
4. Many pple have been shocked that im chinese..i still dunno why..
5. one said i look philipino haha
6. one said i look malay..
7. one said i look indian..wah seh that one extreme...
8. one said i look like a boy...thats pri sch..and no link nvm
9. one said i look like pri sch when i was sec 4.. thanks ah..still no link..
10. i hate the language.........like totally...because it hates me too..
11. i cant even learn my dialects..i learn malay faster..
12. i dont like chinese teachers...except my tuition teacher!!! =) shes doenst speak in chinese..hur
13. im in clb...
14. on 12 pple in the entire j2 cohort failed chinese As and took clb..im one of them
15.im still trying to prove a useless point


ok enough...
this is getting no where......................................

i still know im chinese...LIKE MAJORITY OF ME IN CHINESE..
but dun let me be pure chinese.!!!
or i'll be a walking contradiction hahaha
so fun.

Hur Hur.
9:43 PM

Hur Hur.
1:25 PM

I think you really do hate me.
what did i do?

I didnt even study today..or yesterday..or friday.
my pencil box is missing sos my thumbdrive.
im broke.
im stupid.
im starting to hate myself.

Hur Hur.
11:46 PM

Yesterday was damn funny..

MIDSUMMER NIGHTS DREAM!
damn funny.
dont regret going.
soooooo good.
i like the fat fairy and the fat man dressed in the cheong sam haha

You know the feeling when you make a friend and intro urself.
me-hello whats ur name
person-___________
me-im denise :)
person- i know.

:X

hahhahaa
it feels gooooood hahaa

but still i feel that a proper intro is only polite.
even if ur friends of friends and know the names already...
like for example ketsu last time.
-Hello whats ur name-
Ketsu-pauline.hur hur

hahahahhaa
wth..maybe i insulted him ahha

anyway today log was good.
like not bad good.
sharing with brandon was good. maybe cos our spiritual level was about the same..You seee your name here! hahaha
and yes brandon went jamming with randy hocklu eugene and benjamin too that day with me hahaa i just forgot to put it down.

wahh i shouldnt have went to cartel. now im broke and dead full..im already using my savings.

thanks guys for all your comforting and encouragement i really appreciate it :)
(hug)


and i just wanna say... i admire avril lavigne..her song are actually quite high u know..that means her voice actually got alot of power wan..and she very pretty ahaha
and kelly clarksons voice is damn good..but i think she grew fatter ahhaha
NEVER AGAIN!
nice song..
i tried singing it..wahhh cannot make it...damn high damn power can...
i dun have that oomph ahaha
shit lah..
im damn noob
singing damn noob can zao sia and become scared infront of the sch and embarrass myself and my range so lousy cannot control my falsetto only can sing low low like man like that wth lah..then my guitar damn noob oso dunno any theory. cannot do improvisation only know how to copy pple wah....like who dunno.

common...dun say no lah u not noob can...if i wanted to learn guitar or sing properly id put in all the effort and be a pro by now and stuff.

im my biggest crtic.

and my studies suck.
i think bro paul hates me
because of my grades
and i seem to always get in trouble with him..
ahhhhhhh
i really wanna be a model student you know!!!
i wanna be smart and clever! and excel in everything!!!!!
but noooooo im just a noooooooob.
whos lazy ahhahahaa
ok so its my fault.
whyyyyyyy do u hate me....
i love cj...
ahhahahahahaaaaa
is that why u never reply my class bout the use of aircon cosi wrote the letter...
cos nobody really cared or was too busy to write it..
so they just push it to the councillor in class...
wahhhh
but nevermind.whats done is done

all i can do is study.
study.
study.
get enough sleep. so i dun sleep in class.

i dunno how i feel i have so little time to study...
i never watch tv..i never really play guitar...
i dont draw anymore..except sat morn from 1 to 5 am..i couldnt sleep
i dont sing as much..
i havent shopped in a while...
i havent had proper sleep.

i just think i socialise too much.
but heck i love to socialise..
thats why i must study in grps...
or i will resort to msn...
hahahaa
thats worse...



JUST KNOW THAT IM TRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND IM HELL STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM IN STUDIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT SUCKS!!!!!
this sounds as tho i want the big guy to see this and im giving all my excuses..
ahhhhh pls dun let that be true hahaa
u wun see it right.. ahhahaa
that would be so embarrassing ahahaa


and when i mean the big guy...i dun mean God ahhahahahaha

wth.








and so...
i punctuate my sentences once again with..
Hur hur.

Hur Hur.
4:42 PM

Im currently staring at the screen and squinting my eyes contactlenseless.
Why? because it dried up! hhaha
i went to tak a nap at like 7 plus i think and qpke up at likke 12 plus..
4 hr body clock again.. ok 5..and thats bad...ok so its getting better...

TODAY WE HAD SPORTS DAY! AND IT WAS GREAT!
SEND ME PIC PICS PICS!!!! AND THE ULTRA COOL EMO COOL REMIX COOL SONG! hur..
then i can blog nicelya bout it.

and ..all i can say now is..
suki sushi....so fulll....feeel like vomitting...tooo much... ahhahahhaa

Everything is starting to bore me these few days..
even friendster! ahhahaa
suddenly my friendster activity sucks lah.. i no testimonials wan ahha
im a LOSER! HAHAHA
whatever lah.

wah lau today after sports day on the way home..i stoped at the far far bustop and walked home into the neighnourhood..minding my own business feeling super drained and full!! FULL! when 2 ugly ahbengs with a basketball came. wtf no wonder i dun like to walk there...lucky not at night..skully become one of the workers insted ...eewww..and ughhh and scary!

anyway..hey damn ahbeng lah then they walk past me down the narrow road then when they behind me..they turned around and saw my jersey and said this..
(my mp3 died..i heard everything//half asleep)

1: (whisper)eh eh..26 say...
2: eh eh haha
1: ((shouts) 26!!!!!!!! 26!!!! 26!!!!
2: 26!!!! 26!!! 26!!!!!
1: eh never turn leh!


WTF lah leave me alone in my zombie state to walk home without puking and and falling asleep in mid walk.
somemore u are ah beng..so ugly oso..go away ahahaha
hope u dun stay around my area man.


Somehow...i really liked the bus ride home with david and clement,
We were all dead tired and didnt talk much..nor did i hur hur. (laugh alot i mean)
its like company at its best. Just sitting and chillin..dont need to talk..
i think we all felt like if anyone talked wed just find it irritating too.
last time id use to feel super strange if nobody talks and all so quiet. but i guess that just means we're more comfortable as a class. :)

oh best fren oh best friend what happend to you.
i miss small talk.
at least talk for goodness sake.
and i dont think u read my blog.
so hey.
whats ur problem lah.
thats what i really wanna say.
in an angry way and in a concerened way.


u know what i wanna do.
i wanna take bus rides with all my friends and have small talk.
for somereason.
i like small talk.
my brain doesnt wanna go into deep thinking and analysing and stuff for some time...
leave all the deep thinking to As.
That means anne..i wont be a good (LJS)^2 for sometime. hur.
cos it really kinda annoys me in the end.
well maybe thats just cos i dun wanna deal with anything at the moment..cos anything to deal with is a problem and heck im just brushing them all aside at the moment for As.
i dunno what im talking lah..,but abit of long talks are good. if u catch me at the right moment.



ive never had a deep long talk with best fren.
never. not that i know of.
maybe about digimon in primary school. maybe.
or some weird kid. named R. Hur.


i really want small talk.
if ur a good friend. the convo will flow.
if it doesnt. i dun wanna talk to u hahaha no lah.
i think its rather u dun wanna talk to me haha
cos i like to talk.
unless gross or you are Y.. ...

hhahahaha sorry i so bad.









i cant believe i actually considered what they said.
Denise i think you need a new ..........
:x :
:( :( :( :'(







did i do something wrong?
please tell me.
u dun even treat me like a friend.





i am very very very very very sad.
if any of you read this..please dont tell her to see.
and if u somehow come by this. please pretend you did not see it.
:(
currently my excuse for u i can only hope but assume is stress.
i hope its true.

Hur Hur.
12:17 AM

I think blogger is finally fixed..
hur..

something strange...
some stranger on friendster sent me this msg

Subject: u r loved
Message: Sharing this amazing truth with you :

There is only one true and living God who creates all things, including me and you. He knows you before you were born. He understands you deeply,and loves you even more than your own parents.

Every human being is destined to die, because of our sinful nature(tendency to do evil). Good works can never save us, neither can charity. God knows we couldnt save ourselves and has made a way for us. God sent His Son Jesus Christ to die on the Cross for us,and forgave us through Him. On the third day, Jesus rose again from death, that whoever believes in Jesus and repent from his/her sins will have eternal life with God in Heaven, even if he/she dies physically on Earth.

This world is dying away. God wants you to believe,repent and be saved because He loves you. But He loves you enough to let you choose for yourself too. God loves you, but He won't force you.

God bless you !!




It was nice...i think..But who the hell so free suddenly just send me this.. ahaha
so i reply who are u ahhaha


anyway...today damn suay...

1. Didnt study yest
2. Slept at 9 so i can wake up at 3 to study then 10pm kenah phone call from ling hur. so i woke up
3. went back to sleep at woke up at 2 am cos i my body clock is 4hrs only.
4. went back to sleep to wake up at 3..but i woke up another 4 hrs later! wth!
5. I zao sia-ed for recessional infront of almost all the catholics in cj.
6. I got so amazed by the wave simulator in phy lt that i went WAHH HUR HUR and half the LT turned to look at me..
7. Something something not suppose to happen in the library..
8. My phone went off with "lips of an angel" playing full blast during night study in the library..
9. Bro paul scolded me for wearing red fbts..
10. And i went SHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so loudly cos pple were noisy hahaha



10 10 10 embarrassing things happened today!!! wehhh!!!
aiya...


and i feel damn dumb...took 3 hrs to finish and understand 2.5 probabilty questions!!!! it had parts tho! but not many!

wah..determination to study oso no use if u no brains can..
makes u wanna give up even more..haiz.

Hur Hur.
11:34 PM

This is too cute.
got this off nana's blog. hur



apparently this is tickle me elmo?
and i have never seen this before...

now i think i know why sham calls me elmo.
haha

now lets take a look at tickle me emo! haha



i get emo...but not like that.
haha

i think elmo is super cute! hahahahahahaa
i want the elmo version of my cookie monster! hahaha

Hur Hur.
12:39 AM

WAHHHHH TODAYY IS BEAUTIFUL DAY!!!
BEAUTIFUL SCENERY! IF YOU GET WHAT I MEAN!
ESP DURING PE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

CHICKENS EVERYWHERE!!!!
ALL AROUND!
INFRONT BEHIND AT THE SIDE!
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


ok..........
enough nise..

clb today was havoc! hahaha
everybody rebeled!
hahaa
i slept and teacher shook me!
she shook me! hahahaha sand said!
ARE YOU OK!
like omg!
i was super shocked!

hahahahhahahaa

studying was good before clb
after that i just was too tired and slept for dunno how long ahha

i can do pnc! haha
yay

tuition ...nothing went in..
ahhhhhh

only manageed to cover one topic today...
gtg study for phys ca now..
just realised its tml...wehhhh
nuclear and quatum
bleah.

Hur Hur.
10:58 PM

MUMMY LOVED THE SONG!
I LOVED THAT SHE LOVED THE SONG!
SHE DIDNT KNOW ABOUT IT SHE WAS SURPRISED!
SHE THREW AWAY THE HIDDEN PAPER WITHOUT SEEING IT!
YAY YAY YAY!
IM SO HAPPY!
SHE LOVES IT! AHAHAHAHAHA
WE WERE BOTH SO EXCITED! AHHAAA

and now my parents both just left for Australia on a plane...
for 8 days...
boy i miss them already..
DENISE DUN THINK LIKE THAT! WILL DIE WAN!
CHANNEL ALL UR EMOTIONS TO STUDYING! HAHAHA
OK!
HAHAHAA

anyway today....


Studying never felt so good.
:)

Lasers and semiconductors is done! i might not know it by the tips of my fingers but! heck i know and understand it...somewhat! and how to do it ahha

i feel happy.
i feel smarter.
today jia png at 2 oclock! hahaha woooooooooooooooooh

ready not ling! haha

today im happy.
Time seemed to fly past all the bad subjects...
i used it to study! like gp ahaha
and clb was spent talking ahha
good good.
except that i slept for lit..

3 hrs of sleep is not enough..
ling ur gonna die young...
thats a BAD thing if u didnt know! go to sleep more!
u sleep so little that when u take naps cannot wake up!
poke ur hand cannot feel..slap it oso cannot feel
use wallet bang oso cannot feel! we all thought u died! ahhahaa
i scold u! RUH! HAHA


IVE GOT A NEW WORD!
RUH!

hhaha
which means GAHHHH TOTALLY NOT FUNNY!
cos like HUR is totally funny
so ruh is opp of hur haha

wah ai jia png! hahaha
i sound greedy! but im not! im denise!
hahahahahahahhahhahahhahahaa
it sure is exciting!

and I MADE A NEW CHECKLIST! WHICH IS EVER SO NICE!
that i have a string urge to fill it all up! means i have to study everything..
stresses me...iits good...it feels good..
haha

55 chps to study for all my h2s and 41 days left to midyrs with 2 ocips in the middle..
help me......................
hahahahaa

i checked one box today.
HUR!

its a good start.
for my case that is..

i better live up to the song i made for mummy...

And i'll show that im stronger than you know
and i'll get the grades that make them all go woah...
hahahaa

woahh..
hahaha

:)

Hur Hur.
11:43 PM

ZOMG! SOMETHING TELLS ME SHE KNOWS BOUT THE SONG!
THE PAPER WUTH THE LYRICS UNDER THE TABLE IS GONE BECAUSE SHE CLEARED MY TABLE!
WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i suddenly dont feel like playing it for her anymore...
:(
now im very sad.

bleah.

but luckily i put the lyics here...and i know the chords by heart.
die die die lah

sometimes she just manages to spoil eveything..
even her own surprise...
:(

Hur Hur.
5:37 PM

freak she came home...
cant do record it! i only did the plucking! gahhh!

anyway i think the songs really nice..and cute ahhaa
for mummy's style. :)

when im done..
ask me and i'll let you hear it hahaha
...
....
havent given her her cookie...
its sitting in the microwave oven hiding from her ahha
i hope no one turns it on or...

POOF! AHHA

I thought today Log was good.
good liek really good.
maybe its cos i didnt feel like shit for all of the other times cos my faith kinda increased..
aiya i forgot to share with them the story..
anyway...
i'll blog it on log blog soon.
but log blog is kinda screwed...i did a nice post and then suddenly the thing hang or something ;( waste my time

so it was good.
Pnw was good.
like really really good.
:)
<3
good job guys..

so happy that i decided to take on the pnw session with anne.
and i thought i'd never be able to plan or lead a session cos of my unworthyness and horridness or drifting away from God.

yet he pulls me in slowly...in his own time..
just right...
before ocip and pnw and the sec 3s who are gg to be attached to log haha

Praise God! thank u!
and thank you to ziyan too
i know u read my blog hahaha
so nah i put ur name here for u too see! happy not haha
anyway thank you! cos i think that in someway..
God used you by saving you to get to me to help me to believe again
to increase my faith and draw closer to him.
thank you! for opening yourself to him
so that he could reach me as well...
cos i think ive put my friends and myself above him these few days..
so by opening your door to him..he could reach in past your door to mine :)
yay...
so i thank you as well.
:)
awwwwwwwwww hahaha
dun cry leh! haha

God does hear my unheard prayers ahhaha
so now you know ive not been praying.
but heck im gonna start trying again.
:)

nise not emo today :)

Thank you for making me ur featured friend anne. :)
aww shucks ahha

take a look at this!





























Cool shit right! ahahhaa
My name so BIG!
THE WHOLE WORLD MUST SEE MY NAME IS COOL! AHHA
ok ok only child syndrome is kicking in ahha
sorry sorry..i usually have random ego outbursts haha
THANKS MICHAEL! ITS COOL SHIT!
ive seen it before..but always passing by to island creamery
just glimpses ahhaa
but never THAT BIG!
;) <-------------- u see this? it looks like it has an eyelash right haha so cute.

that reminds me...teri once said i was bubbly like champaign ahha like wine! im an alcohol!
hahaha
but i dont end with and OH hahaha oh oh oh ahhaha but i do end with a HO ahha
denise tansiew ho ahhaha
same thing...one oxygen one hydrogen ahhaha

im really really happy today..
its a nice day..
good session
spiritual level increasing
had nice talk with gg home buddy today
i shared during log..it was kinda forced but hey
i saw people smiling as i shared and nodding too in agreement :)
then mummy cleaned my room for me even tho its mothers day ahha
daddy was ever so nice..he bought her a flower :)
my french fries were soooo good for some reason..
nice and hot.
chillin to nice good music
studied abit yest :)
and later im gg to surprise mummy! :)

yay! im so happy!
so unlike yesterday ahhaa
suddenly felt so bored
nobody talk to me at home!!!! i very sian
then i keep looking at my msn too see who can talk too
hahaha and then see featured friends online very happy go disturb ahhaha
then i realise im not studying...
cos i just wanna talk to pple haha
then i realised i need some pple to talk to me tooo much that i feel like studying...

hahaha
and then i realised...

I HATE BEING AN ONLY CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cos at home nobody talk to yo
parents have their stuff
aunty and kong kond dont talk to me..
so sian..
i want a twin!
even though i have 3 twins and an adopted brother
i want a real twin! itd be so cool!
i envy milli! hahaha

oh well

i guess thats why i go out so much.
and so im becoming very broke
gahhhhhh

aiya...blogging is time consuming know... haha
u know why i blog so much haha
cos nobody talk to me i talk to myself lah! hahaha

AIYO I DAMN LOSER!!!!!!!
hahhahaha

Hur Hur.
2:28 PM

I FINISHED THE SONG! BEFORE SHES BACK! YAY! BUT I HAVENT RECORDED IT! HAHAHA BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I THINK ITS REALLY NICE! I HOPE I DONT FORGET THE TUNE HAHHA

SO HERES THE LYRICS..

dont know what to call it yet tho ahha

Mummy's day song!

Hey mom i know you like my songs
so i thought i'd write one for you today
I'd like to tell you again and again
you're the best and happy mother's day

I'll do my best to make you proud
don't give up on me now

And i'll show you that i'm stronger than you know
And i'll get the grades that make them all go woah!
Don't you worry now, I'll take good care of you
Cos im gonna be a rockstar
You'll be pampered your whole life through...

I'm serious about what i said
And i'll do my best and thats a fact
Its because of all the love you've shown
And its my way of loving you back

I'll do my best to make you pround
Don't give up on me now

And i'll show you that i'm stronger than you know
And i'll get the grades that make them all go woah
Don't you worry now, I'll take good care of you
Cos i'm gonna be a rockstar
you'll be pampered you whole life through...

And I'll show you that i'm stronger than you know
And I'll get the grade that make them all go woah
Don't you worry now, I'll take good care of you
And I'll love you forever
Happy Mother's day to you..........

:) :) :)
<3
hur hur! XD
hahahaha

i like..

so tml its this..and the super big heart shaped cookie..
which is quite ex

man im broke.

hahaha

now to use audacity to put in the plucking strumming bass and singing
die..sure cannot make it in time ahhaa

Hur Hur.
9:05 PM

I love music.
ilove the guitar.
i love to play the guitar and sing
helps me relax.
helps me emo ahaha
in a good way

im gg to write mummy a song for tml mother's day.
no clue how to start.
maybe after a few songs
it will come :)
but...
any ideas?

happy or sad? fast or slow?
emoish or non emoish ahha

im gg to record it and add harmony and stuff ahhaa with plucking and struming ahah
all in one day.
shes my greatest fan ahhaha
then i'd have to do this one properly cos she'll sure to let her friends hear it.. gah
i hope by giving this to her she'd stop treating me like a dog..
denise sing a song for aunty!
sing come on!
now leh
hurry leh we want to hear u..
wth ahaha
am i supposed to feel happy that she loves my singing?
shes overdoing it that i feel really like a dog.
a circus dog

but heck i love her.
shes my mummy.

when i finish the song
i think i'll put up the lyrics here :)

wish me luck.

i see a day of no studying..
i feel the stress.

Hur Hur.
3:45 PM

Today was something else!

In the morning mass was so packed haha but thats cos we were told to go down..
i came in sooooo late i decided not to take holy communion.

we all fussed and argues bout the rehearsal later that almost no one could go and i was kinda frustrated
like woah that kind haha
then mr pang said cancel ahha
thats what i said at 1st!
haha os i was happy :)

then somehow school just passed by so quckly i dont remember anything..
yes thats bad haha
then i went straight to dentist
with my
NEW CLASS JERSEY! YAY!
its freaking cool.

came back for fencing and somehow didnt fence at all :(
spent my time watching the chinese singing comp.
which i though was quite bad. organisers and participants
i so feel like saying to both parties...
"i can do what she can do so much better" ahhahaha i quote paris hilton ahha

then went to support 2t17 with their hand ball match
and watch ling block red alert! hahaha
hahaa
it was funny.
:)
they got 2nd :)
good job!
agaisnt t33 leh! thebionic man and women class haha

then went to crash fencing again...and played monkey with a basket ball instead..

go see ziyan's blog..nice story..
real story.
cool shit.
i encouraged him to buy a cross yest ahah and he did and God saved.
my faith went up a little bit.
just because of that :)

then we went town and i bought mummy a present! a huge cookie in the hshape of a heart with stuff on it from mrs fields! yum! :)
was dead tired..all the way home.

but i must say today passed by so fast i didnt have time to think aha
what i do remember was during clb..i went off to photocopy something
so i went to the stairwell and....
hur hur hur hur hur chicken!
hur hur hur hur hur
so exciting ahah

dumb ahha

anyway..i must talk about the chinese singing comp.
i thought it was quitebad.
hahaa
esp since it was chinese
i wanted to vote but couldnt cos i couldnt read the names in chinese or understand their instructions :(
those who i didnt expect could sing went up. but that was that. no biggy all airy and sweet
nise dun like
those who were said to be good screwed up and sorry but from the voice quality...i couldnt see why pple thought that. even though they screwed up. the normal bits were..so what?
i mean and like to criticise.
heck singing is my passion so hey i will criticise alot.
im not saying that im so good that i can. but hey..i cant help it. but i can tell whats good or not.
maybe it was because it was chinese.
and hey move abit more guys.. ahha
but i know that bit is hard.
i was thinking what if i did join..
NAH ..seriously i'd spoil the song and embarrass myself..i wouldnt understand the song and it would be hard to remember and i wouldnt know what emotion to show or what effect to use or what.
that would be dumb
thats why lyrics are so impt.
whats the point if u dont understand them

i just think that.... neh neh..rockafella owned this een one million times! because it was not planned by us! wahahahahaha ...so bad.. ahhaa
but seriously.
if u guys...non councillor..sat with us thorugh every meeting..followed us in our duties and works and stuff that had to do with rockafella..
you would make a movie to thank us for our hard work.
its the kind of hard work that..
when its over. you know it was a success.
and u just start feeling that sense of wonder that we did this.
and start hugging the most random pple just be cause we were all happy
and then u start to want to cry
because its all over
and you dont want it to end. because it was so awesome and great and u felt so happy with yourself for doing something that really worked out.
and when they thank u..u just wanna smile all the way home.

thats how i felt about rockafella.
i still havent gotten over it. hhaa

if the bands get famous i'll sell their numbers for big bucks haha

and brother said. it was good.
:)
hhahahahhahahahahaa

im dead tired.
and i dont know who reads my blog haha

and i just wanna say...i dun wanna step down yet!!! ahhahaha so sad!!

Hur Hur.
12:21 AM

I LOVE MY NEW CLASS JERSEY!
LIKE 100 TIMES BETTER THAN THAT OLD CRAP OUR SENIORS DID AHAHA

sooo cool! mine says

HUR HUR! XD

hahaha

yay!
im wearing it now!
i love it!
ahhahaah

i bout new perfume! from body shop! y? i dunno! i like to use! ahhaa
tml i spray for fun! then everybody hug me tml say i smell nice hahaa

:)

i love t26 alot!
esp this year...we've like bonded so much...like one big family!
the guys are like bothers! annoying but every so nice and funny
and the girls are like sisters! always there! caring! funny! and helpful! :)

but then theres one that.....
heh
we can call him cinderella hahahahahahhahahahahahaha
please t26 if any of u are reading dont puke. or stone me. hahaha

and i still dunno what to do about lil miss money face...
are you angry with me?
i dont know...
i didnt do anything to u!
did i? hahahahaa
why u so antisocial? its not good for health! hahaha

somehow only money and food makes u respond. ahhaa


bluh bluh bluh ahhahaha
so funny
bluh

today claire sabo me...
DENISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like that! ahha
dun tell u why its sabo
hahahaha

XD!

today legion meeting so small.
but it was ok lah..
but some funny pple never go! not as nice...
but jason damn funny ahahhaha walk in only must pant ahhahaha

DENISE IS HOT IN DEMAND! AHHAHAHA
U KNOW WHY!
COS ALREADY 2 CA COUNCIL ELECTS ASK TO BE ATTACHED TO ME!
AHHAHA AS IN MENTORING LAH! WOOOOH!
MY LIL MINIONS THEY SHALL BE! AHHAHAHAHA
NO LAH...I'LL BE EVER SO NICE AND FAVOUR THEM AHHAHA

if i have 2 j1s....then sumone must be shot one...HAH! LOSER
hahhahaha
im kidding!
i dun think any councillors read my blog....
i dun think they even know bout it...
i only think i told fiona and swee haha and milli thats all

not many pple in cj know i have a blog or care hahahaha
so what
i can be all emo here then
i know who reads my blog..
log pple..
some 1 classmate ahhahahaa u know who u are! maybe a bit more
sec sch pple..
thats it hahaha
NOBODY READS MY BLOG :(


my dad just went
NABE! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
he so funny
then i ask what did u say!
he said it again
then my mom said it hahahah
i think they are cool
hahaha

they watching funny show ahaha


but i think if many pple read my blog it wun be so nice...
then i cant be all emo here..
then not nice..no point.


I KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR MOTHERS DAY! I WILL WRITE HER A SONG!!!
A MOTHERS DAY SONG!

MY DAD SAID NABE AGAIN AND LAUGHED! HAHA

hehe they funny parents..

I WANNA GET GOOD GRADES..BUT IM PUTTING MINIAL EFFORT
HAHAA

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY ACTIVITIES!
BLEAH BLEAH...WHY DO I SOCLIALISE SO MUCH!

HAHAHA
DIGRESS!

today i gave an exorcism talk in class hahaha
they all so cute...
i tell story halfway
yiwei dunno why dragged my chair with me out of class
then they all laugh at me..
and then slam the door
then i was like...
"YOU ALL DUN WANNA HEAR STORY MEH!"
then inside can hear them shout
"ahhhh yar!!! bring her back in!!!!" hahaha

so fun.
it was nice talking for 3 hrs..
3 hr break ahha
we bonded :)
t26 so nice..
nice nice nice nice nice..
it feels good to have nice cool beans friends ahhaa

nise is happy today...

but tml...
fencing? or lit night?
hmmm

Hur Hur.
11:25 PM

Sometimes you've just got to lie to yourself.
because you know its already gone wrong
and you wanna make it better.
You've got to be one to solve your own problems.
so sometimes you've just gotta lie to youself.
to fix your reality.

friendly non threatening reminder to you know who you are.
itmay see harsh but...
you know it

Anything just come talk to me..
Msn is best..
hahaa
but face to face is fine too ahaha
it depends on the person..

That bit wasnt directed to just one person.

Denise's counseling involves..
hugs laughs smiles
nagging, i told you sos wths alamaks and
good advice and personal sharings ahhaha
and if need be... Emo songs played and sung on the guitar to sooth ur soul hahaha
and the ocasion emo look...to make you know..u've got to do something...

hahaha
like serious.
im serious.

today's list of events after school will be kept a secret.
hahahhahaa
i did nothing wrong!
hur.

Im back to my Apathy shit again.
It works.
but i know its wrong.
its evasion of truth.
but i manage to avoid hurt
i stay happy this way.
but its all a lie.
and it brings me further from God.
i know it and i hate it
but i do it.
because fear drives people.
even to feng shui. hahaha
but thats i dont do that crap. ahha









sorry for being so emo on my blog everyday.
i just have to.
Its either here...
or in ur face.
i think you'd prefer it here.

Hur Hur.
10:59 PM

I like to blog haha

I feel happier today!
I understood physics tuition and got many correct answers! yay! i can do quantumn :)
and binding energy ahhaha

yay!
im happy.

just because of that.
i feel like theres hope ahhaa
:) :) :)
happy happy.

But i still feel like i have brain damnge when studying ahhaha
esp econs
today i fell asleep in econs lect unknowingly 2wice! gahhh! hahah
nvm lah.then i woke up and no more sleepy!
ahhaa
trying to sleep earlier! so i dun sleep so much in class

i wanna do well for As!

and im happy! haha

I saw my old tuition teacher today! she say i slim down! yay!! hahahahaha

and exorcism talk was not bad lah! crowd was not bad! except i think i totally embarrassed myself acting possessed again. ahhaa so impromptu!
they showed the exorcism movie..a snipet of it ahha damn gross lah..then milli was like trying to scare me...sticking out her tongue hahaha and pris pulled on my foot and wrost was during the scary part michael kicked my chair from behind making me jump! wth lah people do i look like those so scaredy ahaha..

i just realised they are all my featured friends! :) :) <3
haha so they are excused for their strange behaviour hahaha
'i cant believe ive never watched exorcist before hahaa
im a noob! haha

then today i got lost! cos i dunno where wong and ling go so i dunno where to meet them then they never answer phone and daph nice nice take bus with me :) cos i dunno where the hell i was supposed to stop ahha i took the bus aimlessly ahha.

so many things make me happy today! :)

and NOT FORGETTING!
22/25 FOR MATHS CA! WOOTS! AHHAHA
but we all know why.....
EH I GOT DO MYSELF OK!
(someparts hur...)

OMG YOU KNOW THE PHOTO OF ME AND MARVIN IN THE BACKGROUND PASTED OUTSIDE 1T08 CLASS THE WALL..

WAS STOLEN!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAH OMG! WHY!!!!
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING!!!!!
BLEAH BLEAH BLEAH...
somehow im not the frightened that it'd be like stolen outta hate ahhaa
hahaha

err cos i dun hate anybody....
i didnt hurt anybody?
omg!!! im feeling so insecure!!!!!!!!!!!
wtf! ahhahaa
why pple have to steal!!!
why do u hate me! what did i do!!!
hahaha
besides being totally loud and annoying at times ahha


forget it haha
i'll never know why it disappeared...


my mum's being annoying...shes trying to read what im typing now hahaa
then i dun let her see...
then she shout to daddy...
DAVID AH! YOUR DAUGHTER LIKES A BOY KNOW! SHE BLOGGING BOUT HIM!
wth mum..
daddy: "HUH WHAT!!! WHO!!!!!"

HAHAHAHA mum's so childish...
now shes going..im sad sad sad sad..u dun let me see...
hahahahhahahaha
i think shes cute...but totally annoying hahaa

ziyan is now making me feel stupid and testing my on my quatumn on msn..
in class i will suan him..
so u damn pro lah...MR TAY LET HIM ANSWER! HAHA..tml tml... ahhaa

wah the pretty girl in cj who went back to canada viewed my friendster...
i think she damn pretty ahhahahaaa
im not les but i think she damn pretty lah..
like wth! gimme some pretty too! hahaha

that reminds me of the maths society beauty calculation ahha
it tells u if ur pretty or not by calculations hahaha

they asked me i was like
-dun wan!!!
-why?
-later they say ugly!!
-everybody laugh at me
hahhahahahahahahahaaaahaha






Random moment of the day

today someone said mr foo act cute..
foo: i not acting lor...i am cute!!!
everybody:wth!!! self praise!
foo:where got praise! cute means ugly but adorable! ahha
pple:yar but u not cute!
foo:nor am i ugly! correct wad! haha
David: You're just hideous...
everybody: hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahaha
Mr foo throws sweaty tissue at him hahaha

Hur Hur.
11:01 PM

Everything little thing is starting to annoy me these few days.
Even myself.

Thank God that this morning's advertistment was well responded to. murmur is good. some felt it was damn freaky some did not. oh well. and i couldnt believe that i would actually dare do something like that. i felt like backing out but hey. i tell myself i have no shame. so i guess that actually means that i do.

but one thing i remembered was that i prayer a lil 5 sec prayer to God just before we went out there...
and he heard it. :)
I guess now i can say my spiritual level is at least 2% now.
sad. but good its getting better.


I think tml's exorcism talk will have ALOT of people.
The most random people have come up to me to ask me the details. Cool.

I think im tired.
and i hate it.
ic ant study.
today i fell asleep while studying at least 8 times.
unknowingly....thats the worst part.
i space out then i fall asleep.
why cant i just concentrate.
i think i have brain damage that prevents me from concentrating on the more impt things in life.
wth.
I dont know what to do.


I need to take more emo pics.
i only have 1...the guitar one..




Its 173 days to A's. i wanna put a countdown on my blog to scare me.








i wanna emo all day.
because i cant bear to study then fall asleep while trying.
They say a real loser is one who gives up and does not try.
If you at least tried you are a winner.
but what if i wanna try.
but then i fall asleep.
my trying will go to waste.
i might as well dun do it..
i dont see the diff.
the outcome is the same.


I know what im saying is wrong.
but sometimes i just feel that way.

my mom just saw the above and went OMG...
i didnt bother to cover.
just leave me alone...

Hur Hur.
7:15 PM

I really really really really really like my new blog skin.
its so emo.
yet cute at the same time :)
and i put new pictures and songs :)))
yay!
i am happier.
shall put up fencing people and log and church photos later..
its too late...
my parents are addicted to some korean serial.
they dont really care if im still awake or not hahaa
nise is happier.

SHITS! TML IS THE EXORCISM ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
I HAVE TO ACT POSSESSED AND EMBRARRASS MYSELF!
NISE YOU CAN DO IT! AHHA

Hur Hur.
1:09 AM

Suddenly i hate myself.

Its just a phase denise.

i hate the way i sound when i speak too.
i know my voice is much lower.
but i'd just scare you.

Hur Hur.
4:50 PM

Blogger is whack. I see the new post icons all vertically..so theres like an uber big grey box ontop of what im typing.





oh sad sad life.

NAH haa

Bimbo friend...you've changed...

i love audrey and her wild ZOMG expressions haha

im starting to like my hair.

its getting easier and more tame.

im missing 1t08.

im loving my guitar.

im in need of grades!

HEY I GOT D FOR LIT MOCK! HAHA

quite not bad wad!!!

im in need of brains!

brains that store and dont lose info!

it looks like im saying im stupid.

im starting ot think i am.

help me.....

Hur Hur.
1:01 AM