Ok so like...here are the racial harmony day photos!!!!! yay! i know im lagging ahaha

i wanna wear a kimono next year!!!!!!
of there is one for me ...=(


Yuxiu and I

Chao Long! Roarr!!!

Randy yiwei and pok trying to be angmo ziyan china man and clement..i dunno what hes trying to be ahhaa

hai yah!!

audrey and I

Hhahaha



best friends!!!

Audrey...NOOOOOOOOO!

yuxiu and audrey

Audrey and Minser!

Cheryl! doing dunno what

hehe

Hur Hur.
10:20 PM

hahaha i like Got this thingy from jon sims blog and bear bears blog ahhaha

Think of 20 people you know.

1. Yuxiu
2. Cheryl
3. Pok
4. Anne
5. William
6. Eunice
7. Darren
8. Alvin
9. Minser
10. Jon chan
11. Daniel ng
12. Swee
13. Amelia Dizon
14. Darcy
15. Alex
16. Sharmaine
17. Daniel Tay
18.Jon sim
19. Yilin
20. Linus

09 a boy or a girl?
minser? girl lah...or i could be mistaken hahaha

Would #01 and #02 make a cute couple?
yeah sure! cheryls alway willing to have a lesbian partner!

How about #18 and #04?
AHhahahah Anne and Jon sim....hmmmm i dun think so...abit clash ahhaha

What grade is #17 in?
Daniel TayJ1!

When was the last time you talked to #12?
Swee...last time? 10.30 pm? today? hahaa

What is #06's favorite singer?
eunice...Erm...i dunno? zao sia man? hahahah same class ahhaha

Does #01 have any siblings?
Yuxiu? yar! one older sis that teaches maths!

Would you ever date #03?
ahhahahahahah POK! er...No....hahahahhaha

Would you ever date #07?
Hahhahaha Darren? No...hahaha but can bring go my church! ahhaha

#16 single?
Sharmaine...ive never asked...but i think..NO hahahaha

#15's last name?
Alex. Wong

#10's middle name?
Jon chan? Milk? hahahaha

What's #05's favorite thing to do?
William? I know!!! Spend time with Anne! hahahaha

Is #13 hot?
hahahah Amelia! ok! yar! A.I.D.S...(inside joke) Amelia is dead sexy!!!

Would #14 and #19 make a good couple?
Er...Yilin and Darcy? Yillin like so much taller than him...ahhahaha

What school does #20 go to?
Linus? CJ!!!

Say a random fact about #12.
Swee? Ms ng said he say prayer like hes in love hahahahahaha

#03?
He used a monkey as a G-string in class ahhahahahahah

Have you ever had a crush on #15?
hahahha Alex...no hahahahhaha

Where does #09 live?
I know! Pasir Ris!! or tampines! hahaha

What's #04's favorite color?
erm from what i remember...bronze? ahhaha

#05 & #06 best friends?
er...Good friends!! 4 and 5 would be best frends lah!

Does #07 like #20?
Darren like Linus? hahahha i doubt so even if he were gay ahhaa..abit..weird match

Does #08 like #19?
Er...theyve never met....alvin and ylin...but i think maybe the other way is possible ahhaha

Would you make out with #12?
Swee? NO!!! hahahahah but ive put make up on him b4!

How did you meet #02?
Cheryl is my best fren since P1! i met her on the 1st day of sch! she was my partner! and i was crying and she just stared at me! hahahahahaha

How did you meet #12?
Swee....Err...in sec 2? my parents were his catechists? but never talked to him..

Does #10 have any pets?
Jon sim?Not that i know of...maybe a milk carton!

Is #12 older than you?
Swee...No! im older than him! so he must listen to me!!!! yay!

Is # 17 the sexiest person alive, or what?
Daniel tay? ahhahahah yeah barney is so sexy!!! hahaha







hahahahhaha

ok...

i think i lied abit here and there hahahahaha

oopsy!

im tired hahaha

i went for the amplify talk just now..it was good..maybe i'll go again nxt fri..
im feeling better now hahaha

Hur Hur.
12:37 AM

Yay! do u know like what just happened just now!!!!

32 Student Council Investiture!

It was held at st iggies ahhaha so glad that Yilin and Mark could come down...and my parents oso lah! one rjc one tpjc! sooo far leh! thanx guys!!


and im just so happy that legion was there! ushering! hahaha cos that i get to have more friends there!!!! yay! i love legion...

you know...when mr leong read my name...guess what i heard..
" Denise Tan..Head of .........." and no i did not hear music...so i was quite confused...but everyone else heard music lah...i was the only one who heard..

LEGION! hahahaha

ok maybe im deaf...or maybe i was just thinking of sec sch...head of legion ahhahaa
or maybe i was just thinking of the legionaries hahahaha
bet i made u guy happy now lah! haha

AND I GOT MY SHINY GOLD BADGE! haha it says...Denise Tan..Head of department ahhaha yay!

i didnt know how to open it lah...i was panicking...for somereason i just kept getting paranoid that my skirt would like get caught in my blazer and i would zao geng...haha maybe cos i wear the stockings cannot feel my skirt ahhahahaha


ANYWAY! TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY! LATER THERE WAS RECEPTION AND LOTSA PHOTOTAKING!

EVERYBODY! LIKE SEND ME ALL THE PHOTOS YEAH!!!

haha then i like had 8 pple in the car....daddy mummy kong kong me and i sent back yilin daryl darren and magdalene ahhahahaha

my daddy almost fainted! hahahaha

but i love my daddy!!



AHHHHH MY 1ST MORNING MASS DUTY TML!!!!

GOOD NIGHT! MUST SLEEP EARLY!!!

I SHALL PUT UP THE PICS ANOTHER DAY



oh and like i think i sang damn badly for the appreciation ceremony....yeah...shit lah..
damn soft too...i rather soft than hear me go flat haha

and thank you to the 31ST STUDENT COUNCIL FOR ALL THEIR HARD WORK YEAH!!!! HIP HIP HOORAY!

Hur Hur.
11:09 PM

Freak lah.

Screwed up mid years BAD!

dont know how to tell my parents

dont know how to tell my council teahcers

dont know how to tell bro paul

yes i have to meet him

this will be interesting

u can all guess what i got already



but i must say i didnt study hard...
its my fault

im not sad
ok i am
but im angry as well
at myself
at mr foo
yup
yes please tell all of us to go to poly
yes we are all stupid and should quit school
yes we are not cut out for jc
yes you just took away any trace of hope left in me


why am i even in cj
how did i even make it here
olevels are a fluke lah
pple same points as me the As as many as my Fs.
but something brought me to cj
so i must stay in cj!
must must must
must buck up
must mug mug mug!
must not slack



i feel stupid.



im off to study now...




psalm 33: 10-11

The Lord shatters the plans of the nations
and thwarts all their schemes
But the Lord's plans stand firm forever
his intentions can never be shaken


This is what i remembered in morning prayer
sometimes things just dont go our way
and it feels like shit when that happens
but God has his own plan for us
and he loves us and means well
so we have to just trust in him no matter what


maybe he planned this all along
so that it'd be like him grabbing me by my shoulders and shaking me back and forth saying..."DENISE U NEED TO STUDY TOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"


i dont wanna leave cj
without touching a single life.


lord give me strength.....


PLEASE PRAY FOR ME EVERYDAY THAT I PASS MY PROMOS!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IMPT IMPT!

Hur Hur.
7:57 PM

well i guess i'm much better.

thanks to all you guys who were so concerned for me haha
i feel really loved..hehe awwwww
just like the log assignment
Tell someone each day to pray to God....
4 pple reminded me in one day!
i feel so loved
spread the log love yeah
spread God's love yeah


well i shall try not to be sad anymore
okay!

Theres nothing i can do
nothing i can say
all i can do is watch
and wait

so i better live with it

Theres still one love that will remain and will never end
God's love which is so so powerful and beautiful
You're all i need to survive...



Michelle Branch 'Goodbye to you'


It hurts to want everything
and nothing at the same time
i want whats yours and i want whats mine
i want you but i'm not giving in this time...

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew..
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to..


ok like those 2 verses just dont make sense together

anyone! ask me to play the song on the guitar and sing and i will! cos i remembered it! and i think its the best song i can remember to play! hhahah




but i'm
confuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!


i must say
tho
morning prayer was
really really really
REALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WEIRD!!
WHERE WAS EVERYBODY!
i felt so outta place

i hope morning mass will be better tml





u know what made me happy today
seeing sfx people
i really missed them

u know what made me glad
i could spend time with God

u know what made me feel better
i spent time alone by myself in the st andrews room
until someone came in
it was just me and daniels guitar
hahaaaha

u know what made me forget about ....
himbo fren chasing me around with a freaking snail
surprisingly..thanks dude haha
but never do it again
OKAY!
NEVER!
snails freak me out more than wet stickers
they can be considered cousins of the same species
stickers and snails

haha


surprisingly quite alot of people know already
but i trust them all! RIGHT!
hahaha
never thought i could open up haha


makes me thank God more


ANNE U!!!! ARGH!! I THOUGHT U REALLY HAD SOMETHING IMPT U WANTED TO TELL ME OR A FREN TO TALK TO! THEN U BLEW INTO MY EAR AND LAUGHED! MY FREAKING EARS HAVE BEEN BLOCKED FOR HOW LONG U KNOW!!! UR NOT MAKINGIT ANY BETTER!!!

haha
i forgive u
just never do it again! ok!
never!




do i seem happy?
are u sure?

yes i am!

really
u dont believe me?


fine



EOM! U SUCK! i dun wanna dooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i miss you... hahahaha
gah this sucks hahaha
hahahahhaahhahhaha
but im still happy see!
why did u even bother to highlight this part!
black against white cannot see ah!
hahahahhaa

Hur Hur.
9:44 PM

"Broken"
by Seether feat Amy Lee..


I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you’re gone away


My cross just got heavier..


Sad sad sad sad miserable...
This totally sucks big time...
Sometimes i wish i didn't know so much..
Sometimes i wish i didn't feel so much.

Hur Hur.
5:54 PM

Tag replies....


bear bear: trust me my chinese is worst than anyones...no one can teach me! thanx for the pics..and i heard u were in hospital!! i was in the same situation as you...i pity u totally ahahha

Anne: Aww my (LJS)^2 friend! luv ya!

milli: Love u too milli! i saw u today! haha

Bear bear and Choco biscuit: No problem..im so happy u guys came :D meant alot to anne and i..praise God!

Milli: Council bonding.? arrghh! u missed nothing i tell you..besides that we played frisbee..and my group kept winning and our opponents scored 0..haaha except 1 where we let them aaha




I'm really really really really bummed...

i spent the last of my holidays in the freaking school.
having council bonding which was playing of 2 games.. until12
and then a freaking long 1st exco meeting
i must say we got things done quite good
but i just felt quite stressed...
felt so restless..
just kept thinking of legion at east coast park...

i wanna be there! i should have gone! if i knew the freaking bonding was just like that!
but there was exco meeting
which is more important.
yes.
oh well

wah the whole day i was thinking bout legion leh! im just so attached to them already ahahha
i was so bummed

when i heard some went to play in the water
i want to play in the water!
in fact i wanted to submerge myself in the water!
cos my parents will never let me!
because they think a tsunami will attack me..
yes i know its stupid

and i hear the girls got massages!
if u have been reading my previous posts..
u would have known ive been needing massages! hahahahaha
ok not need..but i want!!!!!
ahhhhhhhh
not fair


but after the meeting
i dunno i just felt reak sick
in the cab i almost threw up..
i dunno why
maybe i so sad.
i spend my last holiday in sch
wasted my chance to go ecp..
im deprived of ecp..
i always somehow never get to go...

the cab driver thought i was sec 3..
uh ok..i know i damn short and look younger than i actually am..

but met up with legion later for pool
the place freakin squeezy
no wonder cheap.
haha
i beat jon chan and anne
but i lost against darren and aloysius
can lose summore when darren purposely let me win haha
cos got freaking pple taking photos!
ok i know i just play bad haha

then we went to walk walk around parkway
i just couldnt eat
dunno
but was hungry haha
so i bought duck rice which was freaking expensive and theguy take damn long to make
pls lah they dun even need to cook
faster ate so the rest dun need to wait so long
then i felt sick again

i dunno lah

was quite sad afterwards had to go home
its like so fast go home!
i just got here!
oh well
didnt get to go shopping tho
but i was dead tired too

i took the bus home with anne and mag
they told me what they did in ecp
wahh i so sad..
i missed out on such fun stuff
i hate to miss out on stuff
hack! i dont even miss out on lectures or tutorials!
every moment with friends are impt to me
hahaha

remember my previous entries
where i was so excited about today
well now im really really bummed
ok i know i said that

u know how everyone at legion said they could go
well i hear only some turned up
what happened to the rest?
those who didnt show?
poor eunice tho
whats happening man
we are legion
a community

and what happened to log?
its not a big deal
but what happened?
ok i know what happened..
but do you guys see it?

im feeling sad
i dont know why
i guess things arent going the way i planned it to be
i guess im damn spoilt
me me me
shut up nise
im wallowing in stupid self pity again
i thought i stopped this nonsense
but still im feeling sad
maybe its something else

ok i know its something else
why did u even bother to highlight over this?


cant think of anything to make me happy

where did hyper bubbly happy nise go?

i want that me back

this sucks


school starts tml
and this is a sucky start

im not happy to see anyone
from my class tml
maybe except minser
i dunno why

im looking froward to see legion again tml morning
i just felt that
today
legion did not feel like legion
the people were just different

maybe it was just me
and anne as well.
we saw it
did u?
why do you keep highlighting what i type

whats happening..



well anyway
here are the photos i took today...
right now i just find them totally contradicting and ironic and paradoxic
but that was then

Darren against Jon chan

mag and I

anne mag and i

Daniel tay..sorry this shot came out blurry

Alvin aloysius and jon chan in the background.

Anne and Aloy

Anne and Mag

Anne..this is one of many posed shots she mad me tak :D

mag and i again heee

ok stupid syf opening ceremony thingy day that i was made to go!

Iggie me and swee! both being spastic

the rest of the photos are with sharmaine..i'll post them up another time.

COUNCIL BONDING DAY!

me annabel and vanessa

this puppy was actually the highlight of my day. its freaking small and cute. its firmin's..some guy..ex councilor i think..i think he was in amplify..cant forget a name like that..so weird.

oh well..

i think im gonna sleep early

im really lacking of sleep.

fun fact. councillor are strictly prohibited to skip lessons..but are allowed to sleep.

but cannot lah pls!

Hur Hur.
8:13 PM

Got this off Steff's blog...haha


How perfect is ur school life?

[x] met an amazing person
[x] skipped class (does extra lesson count?)
[ ] DETENTION (im guai ok!)
[x] hugged someone in school ( so many times!)
[ ] started a rumor
[ ] gotten suspended

total: 3

************************

[ ] cried in school ( i hate to cry. Im strong! wooh!)
[x] wish you could take something back
[x] made new friends (duh! like by the hundreds! haha)
[x] gone to a dance (social dance?) haha

total: 3

*************************

[ ] watched a football game
[x] watched a soccer game
[ ] watched a baseball game
[x] watched a volleyball game
[ ] watched a tennis match
[ ] watched a softball game
[ ] watched a basketball game

total: 2

******************************

[x] stood up for someone being made fun of
[ ] broken up with someone in school
[x] fought with a teacher (is arguing considered?)
[x] got kicked out of class (I refused to leave tho..acted blur haha)
[x] got sent to the office for getting in trouble (short skirt ahha sent to see bro paul)

total: 4

*****************************

[ ] got a 100% on a test (in my dreams)
[x] walked to school (from e bus-stop?? heh.)
[ ] drove to school
[x] got dropped off at school (muh daddy!)
[ ] heard a rumor about yourself ( i certainly hope not!)

total: 2

****************************

[ ] gone to school under the influence (of?)
[ ] had something illegal at school
[x] missed school when you weren't sick
[x] failed a test
[ ] failed a class
total: 2

*******************************

[x] made up some lame excuse for homework not being done (all the time)
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse
[x] crushed on a teacher (not really but im in a fan club! haha)
[ ] hit on a teacher (eww)
[x] hated a teacher (renganathan! and chinese teacher!)

total: 4

**********************************

[ ] was involved with a sport
[x] on student council (yeah man!)
[x] in a club (i have 3 ccas..)
[ ] got a scholarship
[ ] got an award

total: 2

***********************************

[x] fallen asleep in school (my natural instinct!)
[x] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class (rarely tho..im pro! haha)
[x] had your phone go off in class
[ ] had your phone taken away
[x] lied to a teacher

total: 4

**********************************

[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[ ] eaten lunch in the bathroom
[ ] missed more than a week at once of school
[x] excited for summer (spore is always summer..june hols?)
[ ] taking summer school

total: 2


Add up your total and times it by 2.


28x2= 56%

ok so does this mean my jc life is 56% perfect? huh? ahhahahaha ok nvm...

Hur Hur.
10:56 PM

i just wanted say that...

243 people have viewed my friendster profile in june! ahhahaha

i feel damn big headed hahaha
maybe its like damn lil lah compared to other pple
but i wont know haha
well its my own record! hahaha

session
was
draggy
and long
could see so many people
being restless
hack i was restless as well
i thought my sharing was good
for me
hahahahahahahha
i needed to share that
thanks anne and bel
i think our session was good
except we need to plan earlier next time and know what each other is doing oso and eliminate those messy detailed stuff ahhaha




I'll Praise and love you Father Lord,
the way i do best.


LIKE YAYNESS! HAHA
why?
i dunno

YAYNESS!
shall be my word!
i claim it to be mine now!




ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im gonna miss out on legion east coast park tml! someone console me!!!
i might miss out on it totally...:(

Hur Hur.
10:22 PM

I can say that today sucked real real real bad

i was super confused i just wanted to cry

i just did not know what to do.

but i want to say...

Thank you Anne.
My LJS^2 partner
You really helped me ALOT!
ALOT ALOT ALOT!
im glad im not alone on this
its a big cross i have to carry
and your really helping me

I thank God..for bringing u into my life!
Love u anne!
(william dun jealous ah!) hahaa




i know u all have no idea what im talking about..
maybe i'll share it during session tml
maybe not
freak ive not finished planning session!


well today...
i really felt that God was watching over me.
His prescence was just so strong you know.
It brought me to tears.

Anne, Bel and I
were meant to do tml session.
we all have one thing in common
and i hope the session will not only help the loggers
but us as well.
Like Anne said in allocutio
We are all chosen.
and there is no such thing as coincidences
thats where God wants us to be at that very moment.
For us three..God wanted us to do this session.
I know that now.
i love you guys hahaa
im glad we stayed back when everybody went off.
and i glad we talked and prayed together.
i'm glad

and i thank the lord for suddenly providing us with the keyboard and guitar that was previously used so we could go practice for awhile cos we were feeling damn worried bout it not being able to practice.



I love God.
so so so much.

I feel ready to plan for session now..
haha

yes at 12.45 am

when i just ate my dinner

today was horrid..the syf thingy..
but im glad it happened.
im glad i had to go.

im glad i came late for the bbq
and im glad i was so confused
because of some things i just cant say
so that now
i can really understand
what he wants to say.
so now
i understand
why
why things are like that
although nothing is solved
i dont think it can be
its a cross i'll have to carry
always


only anne knows what im saying ahhahahahahaha
u go girl! LJS^2 partner! haha


ok time to plan session haha

Hur Hur.
12:31 AM