wow.i blog so little now...

i was just wondering,,can u all actually hear my blog song? its blind by life house...its been there for really long now wanna change it...if u cant hear it mean...u never wait for it to load ahha.

so my week...was interesting...campaigning week that is...i think it was quite good..all the posters the ugly banner the beautiful badges! and the snacks!! hahaha think i'll get in...i hope...my chances are...10/15! haha cos 15s the pple running for ca and they'll only take in like 10 haha..

so u know what to do... VOTE FOR ME!!! DENISE!!! ahha and thanks for all those pple who ask pple to vote for me...

wah that bowling day...never have i ever bowled so bad man...37 points...i know..how can someone bowl 37 pts!!! from that day 137 plus points to 37 points! omg! i was so sad lah...maybe i tired haha

went for curia yesterday...stupid sac legionaries nvr come...so shameful!!! wah lau i no face already ah! some juniors ah! then went to subway to eat with anne darren eunice and jon sim. then went novena which i fell asleep in haha then left darren anne and i so we went delifrance and talked till 9 wah lau damn late lah...contact work! aha

just came back from spending time with the loggers...woah i missed them...good to see them again..good to have the session...wooh! log sessions are like my spiritual battery charger ahah keeping me on the right track, and i thank God for them.

i feel like playing guitar...im getting bored of guitar...pple must sing when i play then nice haha...now i wanna learn drums! but...not time..

i find blogging boring now haha bye.

oh tag replies...

Soo: Thanks soo! u rock!

elena: Thanks! haha but i no time to draw...very lazy oso...haha

anne: yup and thanks i love ur post! ahha thanks for helping me publicise haha...everyone go annes blog...in my links..then scroll down and see what she help me blog haa..

milli: thank you! haah

rice: yeah...but i just saw u ahah...miss u already! haha...u wish haha

after doing the tag replies...i realise i have alot to thank God for...so Thank you!! haha



I leave it in your hands.

Hur Hur.
3:53 PM

tag replies-

milli-aww my class was sweet! my class mah! duh! of course nice! ahaha i wanna teach my class too! ahha my class rocks! haha i got to facilitate a class with reganathan...booooo!!

rice- yeah i know!!! we're only 3/4 nice!!! noooo! the horror!!!

william- yeah sure i'll link you! and yesh penguins rock too! but they dont stone or pebble or granite or boulder...aww..(legion inside joke)

anne- yesh i updated! hur hur and yeah of course i read ur blog!!

von- hello von!


empty space...(radom fact ..i did the post then tag replies...)

wanted to stop blogging totally but anne said that if i stopped blogging she wont publicise me on her blog!!! so here! im blogging! aha

Its campaigning week! ( yes the week starts in a sun) ahha do you see my posters everywhere!!! as in everywhere!!! but i must say the shag team's posters are real nice... and no my names not Dernise!!! its DENISE!!!! GET THAT RIGHT!!! tahnks ah alex spell my name wrongly...

vote for me!!! hur hur.. i really wanna get in council!! i want that gold badge with my name on it!! vote for me!!! haha

i ushered for cj's band concert..saw soo and jason!! ahha yay! jason no response wan ahaha funy guy.. all i can say was that my feet hurt like hell! my aunties shoes were one big one small...:( and i looked smart! said jocelyn haha oh i saw joce too! and shirs! haha and thanks steff...this is what she did..she came with her friends then saw my and was like hi! then she turned to her friends and was like...eh this one lah this one's denise vote for her k! hahah THANKS! WOOH STEFF U ROCK!! haha saw so many pple and thier gf of bf's there haha how interesting...

on sat i went to tpjc's open house...going there made me appreciate cj even more..haha i love everything bout cj! wooh ! and know what...the people in cj look 2x better! girls and guys! haha as in good looks lah... haha that includes me! haha kidding... no offence to tpjc though..maybe its just the area we all come from..ones on the east and the other centralised...

today was good...log sesison that is...and soo! u read always read my blog! aww! tag! hahaha i really needed a log session...so long no session felt i was really drifting away...from...God...hur hur..i really needed that sharing session... wooh! im revitalised! hahaa now i have more strength for campaiging! please forgive me if i seem too holy or too excited and enthusiastic about my faith. thats the way i am and i like it! hah! go away! haha no lah...its not like i ask u all to come my church or anything right...in fact im rather selfish...its MY church! haha no lah..it is lah..but i wun like that lah...ok im talking crap...yar so please understand my behaviour towards my faith...cos i think it rocks and God is real exciting !(i told cheryl this and she was like u telling the wrong person) haha...and God is cool and very funny... and he makes me smile :D..if you dont see that then nevermind lor...just bear with me...and please if u all feel uncomfortable just tell me to stop haha...not like i preach or anything....ok i shall stop hur hur...(cheryl said hu wants to read ur blog when its all about God?) why not...hu ask u to read haha...hu wants to read blogs about other pple's lives? please lah..why do we even have blogs? its such a waste of time...thats why i dun blog so often now..(i know im gonna regret saying this and just contradict myself sooner or later) oh well

let me redirect you back to my oh so boring..i mean...wonderful life! haha

legion outing! to marche! haha pocket so pain and tummy exploding aahaha never go back there...never! ( and once again i have an odd feeling i will not stick to my word) haha we talked about shit! haha as in fish shit! and porn! haha fish porn! we have one in school! haha and mr pang is observant...he said i looked tense...erm sorta..assumed it was bout campaigning...well sorta...its just that alex was asking bout exorcism and i was reminded how i was seriously afraid of ghosts and how somehow i forgot why i was ever afraid...and could sleep well..hmmn to tired ah? ahha and oso how my stupid dreams of being an exorcist(which totally freaked me out) stopped altogether all of a sudden with my fear of ghosts...please do not get scared..haha...its nothing lah...that tense look of mine was due to confusion and a need to pee...haha..but it all stopped when i kinda drifted from my faith...cos of school and campaigning...i just forgot about Gods presence around..and stuff...

i have a sudden urge to be nicer to someone in my class..:) nah...not ready..see im not so holy...maybe i shall just not talk bad...and continue to ignore...hahahaha that works for me..

im glad for todays sharing...yup :) thanks soo for being understanding and calling that guy an asshole i totally agree! haha but hes not a total ass hole haha...just at that time...

i better get my cip hours for ushering!!!

ok this post is so wordy and time consuiming...i think i spent 45 mins... ahhhh all the work i could have done...NAH! hahaa

BYE!!!

and yesh anne..i philia you like how u philia me :) but no i will not kiss you in return ahha its just wrong...why do log girls like to kiss other girls? haha

k guys do not siang wai....


hehe my friendter reached 419 pple! hahaha..yay im so happy hehe..and so random person who saw my photos saw my drawing and said it was nice!! yay! this one!

haha lemme show u all i drew! which is very little ahaha

drew this for jeslynn!

did this on my lit exercise book

my other pic refuses to load...booo...the one with the bear under the bed.. can go my archives and see...october! the 1st pic! cant miss it ahha

and i still think the macdonalds pic is damn ugly...compared to these...that why its ugly! ahah not that these are real nice...there just presentable and not ugly haha..

ok im tired...i took 1 hr for this post...see! blogging takes up time!!

Hur Hur.
8:22 PM

ello! ello ello ello ello v e! haha stoopid....

ahhh so im campaigning with alex and lester now that daphne is dropping out...i wun kill u lah...haha ..its ok...i just hope mr leong approves...tell him so late.. if not i campaign alone!!! ahhhh wah lau..

im sick..coming down with a cough...

but anyhows...after school we went to island creamery! haha fun fun...yummy yummy...ice creamm good! mud cake good!! then took a group pic...me cheryl nana drey clement david yang vinod and shun ren..hahaa then we paste on the wall! ooh! haha fun fun... then we pasted big stickers on vinod without him knowing haha! then he go home like that haha

wha during pe...it was raining bad so we all just slacked! haha then the gals were all talking bout bras and the guys were eaves dropping lah! then we found out and move one step down the grand stand then...kenneth! chee koh lah u! come down oso...and sat next to us!!!hahah to listen then vinod oso came and then the rest of the guys kaypo oso come haha wah lau.. our class guys damn horny lah haha

eeeeeeeeee i feel i need to study...but i feel i need someone to teach me instead...like physics!
hu can teach me physics! swee tried to teach me b4 but...im sorry...I DIDNT UNDERSTAND A THING!!!!!

Hur Hur.
9:56 PM

hello!!!
i know u guys missed me!
i missed my blog!
4 days w/o blogging!! hahaha

ok hu cares hahaa

ok so where did i stop...tues rite...so i got in the nominees list..which was stupid..cos only like 6 or 7 pple of about 76 din get in...dumb...but sorry to those who did not make it...

gonna say a speech! ahhh someone kill me....

thurs! cj mass! i helped play guitar and sing the glory to the lord thingy..and i was shaking after wards! ahhhhh

then the cj loggers minus dominic all squeezed into anne's mums car...and rushed to church! and we all sang adn prepared the food for the supper for youths ! and i played guitar again...hur hur..its intimidating to play with adults...

fri! good fri service...squeezed in with loggers for mass...litterally then we went kris hse to watch passion wich i slept through...sorry...then helped out for stations in church...and i helped read! woot!

SATURDAY!!...CJC　LEGION IN SFX! not st fancis church...hahaha it was nice and fun! and tada!! IM A LEGIONARY　NOW!!!! hahahaha yay! in my church summore...said my 1st report...then brought them all down to eat at RK! ahha they said the food was really good...and now i actually realise that yeah it is good! haha...i din know rk was that good...haha

then rushed off for tuition which i was 1 hr late!!! hur hur...bribed tuition teacher with biscuit hur hur...
then in the evening...easter vigil!!! did i sleep? maybe....ahghaha...i wore a dress!!! my prom dress dyed purple! hur hur...so uncomfortable!!! i wanna die...never wear a dress again.nise...girls or log should be allowed to wear jeans...hu came up with that rule anyway..haha it was a great day! i know anne would say the same...i see u everyday lah anne!!!

i just realised...anne blogs alot...just in 4 days...i feel ive missedso many things haha...and i look spastic in the photos!! i look like someone bashed me in the face!!!

Hur Hur.
6:23 PM

GAH! the stupid nominations list is still not out yet...went home at 6 and gave up ahhaa i'll ask my friend to check for me..lol

haha today so funny..saw yang david and randall (my cuz!) at canteen...then yand and david found out that hes my cousin and were all so shocked...and their friend came and they say i was his cuz and was also shocked! haha...they were looking for any sort of resemblance haha but nothing and insisted our eyes were simmilar...no lah..my dads eyes freakin small...then their friend was like...nice to meet u! so whats ur name...randall.... randina? rhonda?!! hahaha all burt out laughing lah! pls lah! where got name must rhyme wan...and yucks! do i look like a rhonda!!! lol! eeeek...

tml is 2.4....noooooooo eeeeee...im gonna die....i cant run!!! and the guys will be watching!!! noooo...i'll come in last.....its either cheryl or i lah haha...cheryl! im becoming fitter than u! haha

Hur Hur.
7:07 PM

Im back for council election camp!!!! woooh!!! ahha it was reaky great man...i love my group FAITH!!! all we need is a lil faith! our name tags are damn cool! and we were all just like one family you know...

the interview~! omg i think i must be the luckiest person ever! my two interviewers were...mr alfred pang who is my legion teacher! and nicholas ho! haha who is damn nice lah haha...both so nice! i talked to them so long man...20 mins my interview...and i thought it went very well ahha...wah scully i cant even pass through the interview...damn paiseh lah! but i hope not...i dont think so...i was one of the rare ones who said interview was good...perhaps im just too optimistic for my own good...(ok i know this sentence just contradicted me totally..) HAH

and wooh! im participating for the cjc maundy thursday mass...GO OK! haha


then went to marks house with swee...i just wanna say thank you to swee, justin, mark, joan, for taking turns to carry my super big n heavy bag without a sling and my guitar haha....i think i would have fainted if u all hadnt helped me haha and thanks to all u guys in camo who helped me carry my guitar and belongings as well haha...i know..i have too many things...haha

i know a new secret!! hur hur!　but its more of a news...i shall share it ahha! ask me if u want! i wont say here lol...

AHHHH i wanna be a councillor!! lol!
tml after 2.4...GAH THERE's 2.4 TML!!!!! yar then theres photo taking for council elections!! the cruelty of it all!!! i'll look like a flat stringy haired zombie lah! eeee what a way to campaign..

eeeeeeeeeeee

hur hur..

SWEE YOU HAVE MY TIE!! GIMME BACK NOW!! ahhhhhh!

gah! theres till such a thing called homwork that never ceases to irritate me.... bye

Hur Hur.
9:12 PM

AHHH I HAVE TO BLOG!!!!! ahhaha'

today funny..i made it past the 1st round of council...which is hand in form ahah...ok stupid..
camp tml!

then went to town with 1t26 then went off haha with cheryl to buy her bday present and eat pizza hut! haha indulgence aahha...bought my hand phone hangy thing!!! yay!!!! finally! its been4 months without a hangy thing haha..ok whatever ahha

whats funny is that for life concert only joel mark and i turned up haha...and it was damn crowded...it somehow much different form sdyr...and quite similar ahha... and we din have seats! too packed! audrey was there! but din see her...then on the way out i saaw my old sac friends...haha..kris danced! u go girl! ahha

you know whats funny! after the thing...the SA gate was locked!!! so we had to climb over the wall!! scary shit! i dont climb walls!! haha but i did! with the help of the rails...the guy just jumped over lah! carzy...haha..danielle was there and she cut her hand and got blood...i was like omg!! for her lah...so then i went and tada my skirt got caught! ahha stupid! but i managed to climb over...then walked back to mrt...only when i got into my dads car i noticed i had a cut on my leg ahha...i scratch my leg cos itchy then owww....haha then i turned on the light only to find that it was (ahem let me measure.....10 cm!!!..how could i not have known! funny ass denise... but only 15% is bleeding! haha...later got camp! shit! how to bathe! pain pain haha...i feel like a baby...hahahaha

im on my way! to council...haha...mr foo actually said that i got good chance haha but thats for interview lah...he say if i get in hell probably pass my pcc role to minser haha....get ready for it! its damn slack! hhaha...but i'd like to keep it...it'll look good on my testimonial ahha

Hur Hur.
9:39 PM

AHHHHＩHAVEＴＯBLOG!! ahhaha'

today funny..i made it past the 1st round of council...which is hand in form ahah...ok stupid..
camp tml!

then went to town with 1t26 then went off haha with cheryl to buy her bday present and eat pizza hut! haha indulgence aahha...bought my hand phone hangy thing!!! yay!!!! finally! its been4 months without a hangy thing haha..ok whatever ahha

whats funny is that for life concert only joel mark and i turned up haha...and it was damn crowded...it somehow much different form sdyr...and quite similar ahha... and we din have seats! too packed! audrey was there! but din see her...then on the way out i saaw my old sac friends...haha..kris danced! u go girl! ahha

you know whats funny! after the thing...the SA gate was locked!!! so we had to climb over the wall!! scary shit! i dont climb walls!! haha but i did! with the help of the rails...the guy just jumped over lah! carzy...haha..danielle was there and she cut her hand and got blood...i was like omg!! for her lah...so then i went and tada my skirt got caught! ahha stupid! but i managed to climb over...then walked back to mrt...only when i got into my dads car i noticed i had a cut on my leg ahha...i scratch my leg cos itchy then owww....haha then i turned on the light only to find that it was (ahem let me measure.....10 cm!!!..how could i not have known! funny ass denise... but only 15% is bleeding! haha...later got camp! shit! how to bathe! pain pain haha...i feel like a baby...hahahaha

im on my way! to council...haha...mr foo actually said that i got good chance haha but thats for interview lah...he say if i get in hell probably pass my pcc role to minser haha....get ready for it! its damn slack! hhaha...but i'd like to keep it...it'll look good on my testimonial ahha

Hur Hur.
9:39 PM

so he did sign my form....yes! but i handed it in without my olvel results and testimonial...stupid...had to wait there staring at mr leong for 30 mins just to get back my form...haha but he said he couldnt as he already made comments...thats fast! hahaha

spent the whole day in school...as in more than 12 hrs...7 to 9.30 haha wah just for ptm...which was stupid and we all slept...haha some even went of half way

yi wei was so amused with my hair clips that he cliped one onto his file that was too fat and thus it suddenly flew forward to the row infront and shocked a lady...haha

anyway my parents had a talk with mr foo about council...guess i'll be blogging less now...yep so i can study more hahahahahahahhahahahaha HAHAHHAHAHAHHAAH do you believe me...? haha


i liked today though...tho it wasnt productive at all...i needed a day to slack haha

whats funny was i yuxiu audrey and i and our families all went to eat at long house after ptm... but when i cam yuxiu just left ahha funny...at least saw drey there haha...

im not gonna blog so frequent anymore....

Hur Hur.
10:44 PM

I feel good after mass pe...i need to run to keep me awake to destress...
i was so destressed that i went into the males toliet instead...oops..haha

wtf...mr foo dun wanna sign my council form yet...he say he scared i retain...hey do not underestimate me and my will power... how can he just say no...that little no would just change my future and all that i hoped for..how can i even accomplish something without even given the chance to...i cant stand it when i know my future depends on someone else...

but ziyan says he probably will sign it...he just wants to inform us of what we're getting ourselves into...i know what im doing...getting into council mean life is council...but im gg for cac so life is oso bout god...in school oso...i wont neglect my studies..i'll try my very best...i've learnt from my mistakes..i'll prove it!

theni told my parents this...stupid stupid..then they also agree with my teacher...i know u guys want the best for me...but i could never live with myself knowing that i could do nothing...its this sense of helplessness that i dread...its worst then my fear of ghosts and the dark....its knowing that theres nothing you could ever do..the "when all fails look cute" thingy wont work here...

i realise i really do wanna get into council...bad! haha...never ever thought...until...

i think i should pray..this...i recently found this book and the 1st page i opened had this highlighted...



Jabez prayer..a plea for more territory..-is where you ask God to enlarge your life so you can make a greater inpact for him...



maybe i was meant to find it...



Oh God and King, please expand my opportunities and my impact in such a way that i touch more lives for your glory. Let me do more for you!

Hur Hur.
8:01 PM

Ahhh stressed !!! ned to study! need to do home work! mon ting xie! tues lit pop quiz! wed econs and maths test!! nooooooo!!!
havent studied! when i went home from swees house i just slept!! stupid girl!!! ahhhhh! need to study!!! i havent even read the lit text!!!

lent lent lent! passover meal! thurs... what to do? dunno...council election camp! gonna miss out on so many log and legion stuff lah! noooooo...cant keep track what day is what...

thank God for anne's blog and her calendar...thank god she puts down legion outings ahaha....and log ones too...

stress stress...so many things to do so little time...so much time spent sleeping...but not at the right times...like lectures and study time....

shit..
must study...

oh and my metabolism's gone up! woot!

Hur Hur.
8:22 PM

You know waht...i really do wanna get in council...i do..


i havent gone for mass the entire week...whats happening in my life...time seems to pass by so fast i never even had the chance to spend time with my God..i do need him badly right now..

and i ate chocolate too...i was good..but only for a few mins...then...shit..what am i doing...

tests are just piling up mon tues wed...havent studied yet...and i just keep falling asleep in lectures and tutorials...its not funny..and i m not happy about it...i seem to be neglecting the things i find important in my life...

splitting headache right now...i just wanna

my parents havent kept to their lent sacrifices either...sometimes i just feel like im the parent and their the children...

oh and he is my cuzan..how nice...im happy bout it...nows not a time to be happy..

i feel i need to study man....i wanna go home

i wanna be a legionary...now! but i cant cos of council election camp...no fair..

isnt it so sad to see how people stop believing in God...why..i dont know what to do...so many people...what can i do....im too chicken to even speak up...

im so random..



i just wanna go to the ado and stay there...with no distractions...

i just wanna scream all my troubles away...

i just wanna sleep all day through...without a single recollection..

Just hoping tomorrow will be a better day...


Dear Lord please stay by my side..

In these moments when i need you most..

please give me your hand and my soul you will guide..

and may there be happier posts....



haha

Hur Hur.
1:12 PM