hi this year.

my theme will be.

no fear.
i will be strong.


nothing is going to even break my mood.
i'd rather be apathetic than weak.


last year many things affected me.
affected my mood.
emo kid.

emoing is not fun.
never find a reason to be sad.
i dont mind a reason to be angry.

it makes me more productive i believe.


not sad. sad is never fun.
its like the life is drained out of you.
and all you wanna do is think about what made you sad in the 1st place.
self pity.
sometimes the world doesnt work the way you want it to.

then its ok.
if it doesnt work my way.
i'll find a better way.

i will.


i'd rather build walls that protect me.
than breaking them down.
in the 1st place. why did i.
to some.

you know what.
i actually dont ever.
seriously.
never entirely.

keep it that way. ahhahaa





just dont expect me to be happy all the time.




this year i will learn to grow up
and make my own mistakes and learn from them.
and love them.

only then will i learn.

i know what bad and what is good.
but i may not know what is right and what is wrong.




this year.
i go by gut.
i do what i like.
what it is to improve to succeed.
as an artist
and a person
grab opportunities.
manage time.
and when i fail.
i dont whine.
i learn and absorb and appreciate.


but never embarrass.


i can never be too catious than i already am.

discover myself.
be comfortable with how i react.
how i behave.




do what i like. wahhaha.
if i don't like it. it's unfair to me.
i wont like it. i wont try to hide that i don't.


ok and i wanna be as cool as kristen stewart ahahaha.
its like theres some kinda obssession going on...hehhehee.




i guess its also about being true to myself.
if you don't like me this way.
i guess.
its just too bad.



but im sure.. im not a bad person.
and im not asking for much.
and i dont ask what is not neccessary of other people.
i wont give any problems.


i will just be truthful.

Hur Hur.
9:02 PM