hello.
so i just read all my posts back to 1 yr ago..
wow.

so emo. HAHA

anyway that incident that happened recently.
i got over it in like 2 hrs.

i think i am becoming either super girl
or heartless =)
well no time to be sad.cos i gotta finish a whole lotta work.
and honestly i think its harder than Alvl. i different kind of tough.



so after reading allmy old posts. i realised.
1. i totally dont care or want to care about coyfoy already. give up.

2. don't wanna bring her (not coyfoy) to yiss already. cos i oso give up and find she is fine and happy and i am happy. in other words i oso give up. well i dont talk to her much but love her much.

3.im like totally immuned to the may fiasco.

4. i dont care when it will be my turn. cos im totally not interested. cos i made of stone from all the shit recently thanks.

5. i used to want tohelp other people with their problems so bad til it actually hurt...and now i just give a listening ear..and i dont know how to help anymore. i could. but i'll just listen. cos i forgot how to help. cos i dont even try to rememebr how to cos i am heartless.

6. i dare not read through my whole wonderful ordeal in yiss. cos i am too guilty =(

7. i miss sac days. where everything was funny ahah

haha lazy to read already...i bore myself HAHA
BUT IT WAS NICE TO SEE MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE MY EYES! =)
but it was quite sad really. HAHHA but its ok. this is emo blog.


anyway on a more touchy note.
now in spore there has been alot of news on LGBTs.
dunno what lahh what AWARE shit and pink dot movement.
and people all around me are turning les. or i find out they are les.
it shocking!!!! i must say.
like my old friends.
suddenly i hear they turn that way! like how come i so dum dum oso dunno.
and even in my church!!!
like seriously.
and in my sch there is like so many pls. HAHA
In sac oso EVEN MORE MANY AH! hahhaha my english is so pro
and now im not sure what my friend is. she like turned straight then become bung again ah? i dunno...really no ideaa
and now i have a few gay friends! its funneh! they so fun.
and then i just told my friend bout the pink dot event and she say she may go.
and i was like..ahhhhh!! she oso???

anyway my point is that...
this LGBT thing is like growing in spore..really.
its like a trend.
and its all around me.
and yes of course i have been thinking where do i stand.
and i have decided.
i am nonosexual.
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
cos i just cant seem to like anybody for more than a few weeks.
ya really.
and i aint sexual. HAHAHHAA
and i am actually happy. yes!!!
and i dont understand why some people just need to be with another person to behappy.


but you know what!!!
last time i was BI.
HAHAHAH
pls. if you were in sac. who wasn't
HAAHHAHAHAHAA

But i always think girls are so much better looking than guys.
cos guys are sometimes very dirty and dirty and sweaty and cannot dress well.
HAHAHHAHAAH
but thats all.

and i think that all this LGBT thing...can actually spark off more easily when
your sch or work place has ugly opp sex people. HAHHAHAHAHA


LIKE CJ! CJ EVERYBODY SO GOOD LOOKING! THE GUYS! WOOH!
so much better than lasalle pls!!
haha
the gay percentage was like. 1%? HAHAHAHA

really. HAHA.


ya i just said lasalle guys suck.
YES WHAT! HAHA


THATS WHY i post here. HAHAHAHA




I HOPE NO ONE STILL READS THIS PLACE!! AHHAHA
but my stat counted put 200 hits.
since last last month.
dun care ah.

Hur Hur.
2:52 PM

no
you are the ugly one!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
i hate you!
how can you say that.
selfish.


you say i am
but what are u


i just want to rest after my days of hell
of no sleep and all work and no play.


IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK
i say i'll help and you say i dont mean it


WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT!!!


IT SEEMS THAT ALL YOU WANT TO DO
IS TO MAKE ME CRY.


and then u go follow my in my room
to shoot at me hurtful words
just because i said i dont want to move stuff
id find people for you instead.
and i dont want to paint your wall just because you know i can.
!!!!!


and when i say i will
you're not happy!


WTH
I THINK THE POINT OF THE CONVO IS JUST TO HURT ME ISSIT!!!

FUCK!






and the convo started with...
so how was the interview...
















HAVEN'T YOU HEARED OF BEING TACTFUL AND UNDERSTANDING AND WORKING OUT AN AGREEMENT!








Funnily.
im feeling not as bad
this is one of the worst she's called me.
its like she herself needs more harsh words to get that feeling going for her.


ive really become more numb each day.
really.


i cry.
but its like a bodily fuction.
but i dont really feel anything
but disgust for the type of person my mum is.


i dont even care what she calls me.
cos i know.
im not doing anything bad
i do my best to be a good girl
i dont get piercings
i dont get tattoos
i dont go out late
i just stay home and do work
i dont smoke.

what.


not fair.
really


people say..people all around the world feel like you at some point
so im not gg to say no one understand me.




but i must say
no one has had a mother like mine.

she can be comapred to those psycho moms.
really.
well that. i guess ome people have
but my mothers behaviour is out of choice.


no one ever taught her how to be nice i guess.

Hur Hur.
8:15 PM