Ahhh i cant stand it!" Denise..go bring down your guitar and play for them..come one they wanna hear u play...('they' were all just stoning)...yes mum...eh how to hear..no amp...(dad brings down amp...(thinks of all the hassle of bringing it back up...it way heavy) (plugs guitar in and plucks abit) "eh denise sing something lah come on" 'but i don't know...(stupid excuses) i don;t know the chords or lyrics..(mum sighs) "like that how can! play sing something lah...they all wanna hear u sing!" (looks at the people...staring at me with no sign of interest..)"please lah i really don't know!" (i really don't want to)

ARRRGGHHH!!

I don;t know why...i just hate it when she does that...whats worst is she keeps letting people hear my recorded songs!! is horrible i tell her! (yes it really is) she says noooo...and she lets the whole office hear...ahhhh....and i run and scream and off the song....and she laughs...not funny leh! so childish...she still does it...she almost did it again today..ahhhh....save me someone before i die of embarrassment!! do this do that.....she things im a dog....come on come on play ur guitar sing a song...feels like a circus dog...im not even that good and people just dont give a shit...its only her....why does she want to show me off? whats there to show...i dont mind playing and singing in front of friends but its just different when she tells me to do it lah...she doesnt say it suggestively u know...nothing she says is suggestive...its commanding it is...ahhhh

and its her birthday today...i tried not to

i just feel like a stupid circus dog....

Hur Hur.
5:19 PM