I feel good after mass pe...i need to run to keep me awake to destress...
i was so destressed that i went into the males toliet instead...oops..haha

wtf...mr foo dun wanna sign my council form yet...he say he scared i retain...hey do not underestimate me and my will power... how can he just say no...that little no would just change my future and all that i hoped for..how can i even accomplish something without even given the chance to...i cant stand it when i know my future depends on someone else...

but ziyan says he probably will sign it...he just wants to inform us of what we're getting ourselves into...i know what im doing...getting into council mean life is council...but im gg for cac so life is oso bout god...in school oso...i wont neglect my studies..i'll try my very best...i've learnt from my mistakes..i'll prove it!

theni told my parents this...stupid stupid..then they also agree with my teacher...i know u guys want the best for me...but i could never live with myself knowing that i could do nothing...its this sense of helplessness that i dread...its worst then my fear of ghosts and the dark....its knowing that theres nothing you could ever do..the "when all fails look cute" thingy wont work here...

i realise i really do wanna get into council...bad! haha...never ever thought...until...

i think i should pray..this...i recently found this book and the 1st page i opened had this highlighted...



Jabez prayer..a plea for more territory..-is where you ask God to enlarge your life so you can make a greater inpact for him...



maybe i was meant to find it...



Oh God and King, please expand my opportunities and my impact in such a way that i touch more lives for your glory. Let me do more for you!

Hur Hur.
8:01 PM