Lets me chim and emo shall we.



The moment she awoke from that cradle of hope,
the sturdy wall of determination that many had clung on to,
with the utmost desire to surpass her disgusting limits,
her inability to comprehend the tragedy of her failure of many's success
clasped its bony yet sturdy fingers around her heart and squeezed it like it had betrayed it to the evil lurking behind.

For a moment the bricks of once steel eroded and crashed to the ground.
opening up her overflowing bottle of the hidden which burned her eyes like acid.
The words "but i studied" rang through her soul of sudden emptiness,
in attempt to escape the stare of disappointment in another's eyes
that she wished were filled with apathy instead.

With her eyes forced shut and mind forcefully consumed with false apathy,
she feigned sleep with her back to any possible observants choked in the same situation as her.
But she could see no other but her fading self as self pity creeped up next to her and touched her hand.

the bell rang.

With face overpowered by the weight of embarrassment and avoiding the gaze of the curious Her feet danced along paths of uncertainty and led her the only place where her screaming bottle could overflow without a drop falling against the skin of the ones she loved.

Cowering in the corner with shame and helplessness pressing down against her body and lungs,
she accepted.
Breathing in the humiliating heart wrenching reality that she could not comprehend,
her desires of a fairy tale ending and the answers to "why" released itself at full force down her cheeks and her uniform.
The place was soaked with her hate.

And then 2 came and and made her feel so much better.
one with did so with concern and searching for someone that would help
and one that just talked so much crap that u know it was wrong but the wrong was just to make you feel better for the moment.


as u can see im too tired to write so chim.
dun even know if this is called a poem.

dang i think im becoming sick cos of my mum.










only 5 know. Thank you. Lets keep it this way for now.

Hur Hur.
11:17 PM