i havent been blogging for awhile..
i dont even know what date it is.
even tho im supposed to like count down to alvls.
heck i dont even know when it exactly starts.
let alone ends.

sometimes i feel alvls is like just a barrier..something that i can either climb over. or walk around.
but due to the many pple climbing over. yeah. sure. i'll do that. when it would be so much convenient and easier to walk around it. a decision not many have.

it all the depends..whats beyond the barrier.

of fact.. i dont even think my goal is behind the barrier. but beside it. such that i have no idea why i am gg over the wall in the 1st place.

but i know i must.


today i had the weirdest. reallest dream. ever. that made me not want to wake up. it was as though i was predicting the future. yet some bits i hoped to be true while some i hoped would never happen.

i still cant get it outta my head. it even felt so real. and whats more i dreamed it. woke up. then slept again..and it continued. like woah..cant get it outta my head huh.

then i look back and wonder why.
i thought it had ended for good.
and i was happy.

and now its back.
and im sad. and emo. yet happy.

i seriously need a secret blog where i can dun be so vague ahha.
only 2 people in the world knows about this.

wow.....

and
and
and

im lovin this song right now..its dear life by anthony something..from the step up movie. the guitar is totally wonderful.. classical..not what i'd usually like but. wow. 2 guitars both instumental but somehow different tunes yet they complement each other so perfectly with the somewhat husky soulful voice of a perhaps hispanic guy with that accent. (i think they guy may be old..heh but who knows..paolo nutini is freaking young but he sounds like an old guy ahha a super nice to hear old guy) excellent guitar and excellent vocals.


must send this to milli and gareth.
they will like it too!




let me tell u something. like i realised. my voice is husky..as in not smooth and sweet and clear..but husky and powerful maybe haha something that would suit songs like from paolo nutini or james morrison or rock. but not like celine dion or mandy more or perhaps even the high sch musical girl... whose voices are sweet and clear which apparently.appeals to the masses and what i mean is cj. that is sad.

oh well. i found out also that the blind spot in my singing..that note..is not really a blind spot..but the circumstance of a low note from the diagphram i dunno how to spell..to a high not from i dunno not diagpram.. even tho i think it still is but with a sudden cut down on power to sound sweeter. i can do that note with that much power...its just that it will osund operaish and not nice. hahahahahahhaha and that sucks.

so my vocal range is i dunno i still think it sucks..
so like whats so impt about what i discovered.
its not tested in alvls.

sigh.

and like who cares right.
so dumb. even i dont care.




i want a dog who i can tell my secrets too.
wait theres God.
haha

hi God. but you already know..
why aren't you helping me?
maybe u are already.
but. maybe i just dont see it.
then God please shove it right infront of my face
so i can see it. like maybe penned down in words
or like some divine OBVIOUS intervention.


cos i sure am the heck blur like sotong.

Hur Hur.
12:27 AM