just smile.




"This Is A Call"

She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It's all right on, as she smiles again her mother lies there sick with cancer,
and her friends don't understand her,
she's a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..

[Chorus:]
She's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you,
and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about.

He tells everyone a story,
because he thinks his life is boring,
and he fights
so you won't ignore him,
because that's his biggest fear,
and he cries,
but you'll rarely see him do it.
He loves, but he's scared to use it.
So he hides behind the music, 'cause he likes it that way.
He knows,
He's so much more than worthless,
he needs to find the surface,
because he's starting to get nervous.

[Chorus]

Have you ever felt this way before?
'cause I don't wanna hide here anymore.
Take me to place where nothing's wrong and thanks for coming, shut the door.
They say someone out there sees us,
Well if you're real then save me Jesus,
'cause I've been here for far too long.
I wasn't meant to feel alone.

[Chorus]

Show me what this life is all about
Show me what this life is all about


She fooled all of her friends into thinking she's so strong,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It's all right on,
and her friends don't understand her,
she's a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..
and she's loud
so you won't ignore her,
because that's her biggest fear,
and she cries,
but you'll rarely see her do it.
Shee loves, but she's scared to use it.
So she hides behind the music, 'cause she likes it that way.


but hey. i know im not the only one who feels like this. so who the hell cares right. best not get pple involved.
im afraid to sit down and talk with them.
nothing good will come out of it.
if i cry. it will just get worst.
you don't know what its like. and dont ask.
just smile back.
i am happy.
i truly am.
with my friends.
im happy making others happy.

CAN'T YOU SEE THAT IT HURTS!
thank God i learnt to ignore..to pretend so it will go away.
and so i smile. and everyday is a happier day.
seriously i should just not try to help anybody!
i dont want past to repeat itself. thank God it stopped for As.
please dont return.

emo emo cannot take it. emo. im sure some goondusami will wonder why there is such a big empty space. if u have read this. please shut up. i need a private blog. like seriously.







thank God for all my friends who make me so happy! and feel so loved! even if they suan me or bully me or make fun of me or try to let me see some porn shit cos they are guys or even if they are my lovely seven who i cannot live without. or my juniors or my fake siblings. i thank you. really.

thank you for filling that emptiness in me above.
thank you God.

Hur Hur.
12:30 AM