hello blog
i am very sad and confused. because....
well ive done some thhinking about all my beating around the bush
and i finally understood myself somehow in someway.




as to what i want in life.
there is no compromise.
2 worlds. they clash
they clash depending on the degree of involvment
and i want both.
and its botha good thing.
but not together.

sucks.
like mid life crisis. HAHAHAH
but not what am i doing in life.
more like...what i want in life but cannot get
because its not possible.



denise is spoilt that way
she must have what she wants.
im the only one who can give me what i want
self sufficient that way.



you see how im thinking bloody asshole.
God is the one providing for me i mean.

but denise is also a very determined girl.
and does not ask for stupid things she know she cant acheieve
and works hard for what she wants.

Hur Hur.
1:04 PM