time to let go?
it would be best.
but I know I've changed because of that. the possibilities i hold.
once, in my life and I hope never to repeat again.
to anything else similar.


but
its like smoking once u start, you've never really stopped.
until u taste/feel something bad and dislike it.
regret it.
but if u haven't, you yearn for more
am i right?
i know it and feel it.
and i haven't realised the bitterness
its as if there isn't any even as each puff starts to differ
leaving me confused. stuck.
but i know the final outcome of too much
may lead to death.
we all know
yet why do we still do it?
i do not understand but i know i will die if i proceed
but i do not care.
sometimes we do what we do because we want to. no reason
we are stupid this way but happier. we think.
we know. we hope.



and i want to quit something
a different thing
don't know how
cos i've tasted the bad
but did nothing all this while.
and so i may be rotting inside each day.



i don't smoke kay.

Hur Hur.
1:44 AM