hey hey.
blog that no one reads.
(much i hope aha)

i've been feeling much better lately.
because i've dropped something.
forever not sure but temporarily
leave it in a corner or something. :)

much much better.
and i slept alot.
im feeling good.

and im starting to like the Fine Arts people alot.
i always like people. in a good way..not in that romantic way aha..
i think i find everybody nice like...in the long run
if they are not selfish.
or psycho or ego.

hahah these 3 qualities i cannot tahan.
selfish psycho or ego. haha


ya anyway.
im beginning to move on with life. heheheh. took me rather long i think.
but i still hold on to the good things in life that move along in other directions cause of change.


and it's good.
right now i'm grateful.
it could be better.
but i can't have everything right.




but i can sing.
HAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA.
ok ego moment.
this is as much egoistical i get.
on a secret blog. ahahahah


i don't know why i can sing.
but i know i worked hard for it.
everyday practice abit. ahah
my voice was like shit last time.
but now its better.
i imitate. i learn.
i experiment.
i scream
now my voice is fuller and abit huskier.
like like.



and one more thing.
i've grown to be more comfortable with myself.
with myself and other people. how i react.
i'm sooooo much less self conscious.
i really couldnt care less. ahaha
i dont bother to dress well. ahahah
just my hair must be nice haha


i just cannot look sooo dirty. ahah like gross.
cleanliness. aha
no need to prove anything to anyone.

I am me.
you like me.
good for you.
don't like. don't talk to me.
if you are meant to be my friend.
we will eventually be friends.
fate.
still unsure if it exists.



i have nothing to hide.
just this blog. ahha
cos its emo
and cos i need to spill. or i may explode.
and i dont wanan bother anybody.

i don't have financial problems.
i don't have family problems. anymore.
i don't have r/s problems. i have none. and never had.



but i do have problems.

time management.
changes. in others, in me.
trust issues.
motivation.
religion. in terms of enthusiasm and zeal and desire. heh.


i think the worst one is change.
but its inevitable.
I've changed.
i've become.
1. meaner. heh. i like to laugh at people.
2. kaypo-er..but not so much now
3. bias.
4. and in terms of behviour, choices, preferences, tolerance. the bars have shifted.

but its no big hooo hah..compared to all the beeeeg stuff people face in the world.


its only normal.

ok
im normal.

EEKK I DONT WANNA BE NORMAL.
nevermind if i wasnt normal.
nobody would know i was special anyway. =)

Hur Hur.
1:40 PM